1nocares
Member
- May 22, 2026
- 27
I can't stop thinking. This is just wiring? Am i always going to hit these lows no matter what. I feel gross, the way I think. I'm probably too negative. I'm nihilistic, and way too neurotic. I think about the bad a lot, and that definitely affects my view of the world. I live in a constant state of worry and I'm not sure how that is affecting my body and sense of self. I don't think I have one, i don't know who i am. I know we're all just trying to figure it out, I'm just like everyone else, judging by what i see on the outside. If everyone else looks put together, why can't i be. I probably should read more. i just think in cycles and eventually crawl out of it, just for a while. Till i fall back in. I hate my thoughts, i hate my brain. I don't think i am smart, I am not interested in things. I can't pick up skills that easy, it's hard for me to grasp concepts. I spend my life comparing and not actually working towards being better. Is this any way to live? Can anyone forgive me for wanting nothing else but to leave? I feel angry at myself and everyone else. I don't know where else to direct it but write and hope that others understand
