Will you write a suicide note?

[Plentiful_Despair]

I won't leave a note. I tried thinking about how I can clearly explain why I want to die, but it's always lacking, it can never convey the sheer trauma, they can't understand without feeling it. The only thing I will do is writing a post here a few minutes before I do it, just announcing it and saying goodbye, and also write the only person I consider a real friend something like "Goodbye." I think thats enough, they know anyway how depressed I am but there's nothing anyone can do to change that, it's the entire way this reality works that makes me suicidal. Maybe should call it existencial depression. The fucking universe itself is my constant mental enemy.

 

[Kassiee]

i want to, im just too lazy

 

[Gangrel]

I'm so 50/50 on this, sometimes i just want to go without saying anything because fuck it and some other times i want to write a book as to why.

 

[newjourney]

I thought the same initially but decided to write a blanket message explaining the situation but mostly taking the time to thank people for help I've received, forgive others, assure people there was nothing they could do and just put final thoughts and feelings into words where possible.

I don't know your circumstances so it's a really difficult one to answer but I hope this helps. One thing I will say is that if you are going to do it be prepared to rewrite it many times. I've changed mine about 10 times since I first wrote it.

 

[justamirror]

"The universe eats the best ones alive quicker"

 

[InTheAbyss]

For a bit I wanted to. To say how the system failed and how I had wanted to do it officially through the euthanasia program instead of ctb. How I didn't want any funeral or anything. Just do a cremation and who I wanted to get what as I don't have a will. But as the time is getting closer to find out if the SN i bought is real the hard way. By just trying it and hoping I don't wake up again. I find that I just don't care about leaving any note anymore.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes, because I want to make it clear as to why I made the decision to self-terminate and I have a small will to leave behind.

 

[F@#$]

Couldn't leaving a note fuck with any life insurance payments?

 

[FuneralCry]

I would to explain that non-existence is all I wished for and that existence caused me nothing but suffering and that for me personally death is the relief, I only hope to never exist again and would always prefer to not exist than to suffer for decades longer just to die in agony from old age.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I won't leave a note. I tried thinking about how I can clearly explain why I want to die, but it's always lacking, it can never convey the sheer trauma, they can't understand without feeling it. The only thing I will do is writing a post here a few minutes before I do it, just announcing it and saying goodbye, and also write the only person I consider a real friend something like "Goodbye." I think thats enough, they know anyway how depressed I am but there's nothing anyone can do to change that, it's the entire way this reality works that makes me suicidal. Maybe should call it existencial depression. The fucking universe itself is my constant mental enemy.

You put it perfectly

 

[mrnamoshi]

I'm too lazy lol

 

[lnlybnny]

I have very conflicting and ambiguous feelings regarding this. It's too intimidating having to write such thing, having to explain yourself... I know it would help ease some people's questions, but I'm not sure I could convey everything in an understandable way or what they would make of it.

 

[zengiraffe]

Couldn't leaving a note fuck with any life insurance payments?

It COULD. It depends on your life insurance policy. Most have a "suicide clause" that says if you die by self-inflicted injury WITHIN 2 YEARS of starting the policy they won't pay out. However if it's been 2+ years even if you leave a suicide note they'll still pay out.

Also, if you do plan to kill yourself within 2 years of starting the policy, the detectives who investigate your death will likely rule it as a suicide even if you don't leave a note as there will be other obvious signs, unless you put a lot of planning and effort into making it look like a genuine accident.

To answer the post question's question: No, I don't plan to leave a note. I don't see the point for two reasons. First, anything I write is going to be interpreted as the ravings of a deeply mentally ill person who killed themselves and will be brushed off, having no real impact on anyone who reads it. Second, everyone who reads it is going to die anyway, so what does it really matter in the end.

 

[feelinggloomy]

I have been writing random stuff down and have a few letters drafted. My plan is to send all to a trusted friend to read and send the letters out. There is a lot of stuff that I think would upset my spouse … but I'm writing it down anyway. Not sure why I am doing it. But for now I am. I intend to leave some kind of "writing" I'll not explain my CTB. It's obviously because I lost my son. I've been open about that.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

If nothing goes wrong, most likely. But I can't rule out just dying and letting it be it. I'm so exhausted of everything and afraid of everything around me.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Have written a suicide note for my family detailing the different people I need them to tell (mostly online people), my wishes for disposal of remains, and the usual emotional stuff.

Have written shorter suicide notes for three of my friends which I intend to email to them on a delay. For some of my other friends, who I intend to send money to before I die, I have written a short note which will send in WhatsApp just to explain that this was not a mistake.

Finally, if I kill myself in a hotel room then I will probably leave a note for staff, paramedics, police, and the coroner.

 

[callmeskin]

I won't leave a note. I tried thinking about how I can clearly explain why I want to die, but it's always lacking, it can never convey the sheer trauma, they can't understand without feeling it. The only thing I will do is writing a post here a few minutes before I do it, just announcing it and saying goodbye, and also write the only person I consider a real friend something like "Goodbye." I think thats enough, they know anyway how depressed I am but there's nothing anyone can do to change that, it's the entire way this reality works that makes me suicidal. Maybe should call it existencial depression. The fucking universe itself is my constant mental enemy.

no matter what u decide to write for ur reasoning it will never be enough for the people who is going to read it, they'll never fully understand and i won't be there to explain but at the same time leaving nothing will leave them with even more confusion and restlessness

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Yes. Not a traditional one - I don't see why I have to explain anything to anyone about anything that concerns me, whether I am dead or alive.
Instead, I will write a short "thesis" about why I think that euthanasia should be freely available to all.

 

[Wolf Girl]

No. Everyone in my life knows that I'm miserable and they all know exactly why. They've heard everything I would say in a note a hundred times.

 

[fatladysings]

I'll be leaving a note for similar reasons to newjourney. There are people I want to thank but most importantly I want people to know that there was nothing they could have done to stop me. That's something that I really want to make a point of getting across.

I only have one sibling, a brother, and I've made a list of bullet points for the note I'll be leaving for him. It'll be quite long but a lot of it is just practical information, such as who my bank account is with so the he knows (he's the executor of my will) where to apply to to get my will settled, and where my house insurance documents are, etc.

I just like the idea of leaving notes. I'll not be leaving that many, maybe six or seven, just for my brother and a few close family members and friends.

 

[F@#$]

It COULD. It depends on your life insurance policy. Most have a "suicide clause" that says if you die by self-inflicted injury WITHIN 2 YEARS of starting the policy they won't pay out. However if it's been 2+ years even if you leave a suicide note they'll still pay out.

Also, if you do plan to kill yourself within 2 years of starting the policy, the detectives who investigate your death will likely rule it as a suicide even if you don't leave a note as there will be other obvious signs, unless you put a lot of planning and effort into making it look like a genuine accident.

To answer the post question's question: No, I don't plan to leave a note. I don't see the point for two reasons. First, anything I write is going to be interpreted as the ravings of a deeply mentally ill person who killed themselves and will be brushed off, having no real impact on anyone who reads it. Second, everyone who reads it is going to die anyway, so what does it really matter in the end.

Informative,thank you. I've been thinking about this because I have a "godson" ( I had to go to church and everything.). I'm going to make my beneficiary and don't want to cause him more unnecessary shit.

 

[HopeToStay]

A long one to my mum as she'll be devastated.

A very short and succinct one to everyone else, explaining why (medical issue so most people will understand) and thanking them for being in my life.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

Yes. Not a traditional one - I don't see why I have to explain anything to anyone about anything that concerns me, whether I am dead or alive.
Instead, I will write a short "thesis" about why I think that euthanasia should be freely available to all.

Based

 

[Leon1114]

Probably not, people who care about me should know what problems I had

 

[anon554]

Assuming I won't bitch out this time then I will. Mainly to say something about how I want them to know it was my decision and don't blame yourself. Stuff like that. I am worried about how my sister would react. She's the one I first opened up to about by suicidal thoughts.

 

[Bleh61]

I have one written, but, if I were going to go through with it, I would make sure that my abusive brother knew.
He pretty much made me who I am today. I remember trying to get into my mother's kitchen to help her with a holiday meal. My scumbag brother was blocking the entry to the kitchen. I said "excuse me" He shot back "There's no excuse for you". He said shit like this to me even after we grew up. He also had a habit of tripping me, but grabbing me to prevent me from doing a face plant. As this was happening he'd say " Have a nice trip, see you in the fall".

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Currently idk, but probably a short note. I don't have much to say anyway.

 

[Lovewasneverenuff]

I've written a diary about how I've felt these last few months. I'll read through it, remove the overly dramatic pages. Leave that for someone to find.

 

[avalonisburning]

It probably won't be very long. I'll explicitly say that I'm not outlining what brought me to this decision, because nothing actionable or sincere will be gleaned from anything I say, they'll arrive at the same conclusion regardless of what I put down, and my words will inevitably be used against me to make me into yet another voiceless prop in the eternal mental health debate. They'll just have to live with not knowing why. Instead I'm just going to speak directly to them, try to answer any other questions they have, and soothe their guilt as much as I can.

 

[Jon Arbuckle]

I don't think I'll write a particularly in-depth note.
I don't know what to write that wouldn't just make the people around me feel worse.
If I do it I'll just write a really brief note that just says "this was no one's fault but mine."