Insomniac
𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
- May 21, 2021
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Are you planing on killing yourself with your heart full of resentment towards the world and towards your family and friends? Will you hold onto some kind of grudge before leaving?
Will you write a fake suicide note telling everyone it's not their fault with the subtle intention of making them feel guilty?
Or will you die with a heart genuinely free of any form of resentment towards the world?
I have been full of hate and resentment for people. But as it becomes clear to me that there is no scenario where I don't commit suicide, I'm starting to feel like I genuinely don't want anyone to feel guilty.
I suffered too much. I'm starting to feel like I genuinely don't want anyone to suffer the way I suffered. Even the people who hurt me the most. I don't know how exactly why, but this is just how I feel. No one in the world should suffer the way I suffer. This is too much.
I think before I pass away, I'll make a lighthearted video to my family and do my best to make it clear that it's not their fault, because it truly isn't. We're all just victim of victims. I understand that I have been abused by people who have been abused. And if I keep on living, I'll end up abusing someone the same way I have been abused. That's all. That's why I'm sentencing myself to death.
My death will also prevent my sister from suffering. She'll inherit my part of my parents will and live a more comfortable life before finding what she wants to do. Also, by killing myself, I contribute to solving the worlds overpopulation.
I won't eat animals since I'll be dead so I also contribute to allievating animal cruelty. I won't contribute to the destruction of the environment anymore. My parents won't have to worry about me anymore. My older brother will be able to marry his girlfriend in peace, without feeling guilty for never having payed any attention to me.
Will you write a fake suicide note telling everyone it's not their fault with the subtle intention of making them feel guilty?
Or will you die with a heart genuinely free of any form of resentment towards the world?
I have been full of hate and resentment for people. But as it becomes clear to me that there is no scenario where I don't commit suicide, I'm starting to feel like I genuinely don't want anyone to feel guilty.
I suffered too much. I'm starting to feel like I genuinely don't want anyone to suffer the way I suffered. Even the people who hurt me the most. I don't know how exactly why, but this is just how I feel. No one in the world should suffer the way I suffer. This is too much.
I think before I pass away, I'll make a lighthearted video to my family and do my best to make it clear that it's not their fault, because it truly isn't. We're all just victim of victims. I understand that I have been abused by people who have been abused. And if I keep on living, I'll end up abusing someone the same way I have been abused. That's all. That's why I'm sentencing myself to death.
My death will also prevent my sister from suffering. She'll inherit my part of my parents will and live a more comfortable life before finding what she wants to do. Also, by killing myself, I contribute to solving the worlds overpopulation.
I won't eat animals since I'll be dead so I also contribute to allievating animal cruelty. I won't contribute to the destruction of the environment anymore. My parents won't have to worry about me anymore. My older brother will be able to marry his girlfriend in peace, without feeling guilty for never having payed any attention to me.
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