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hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
290
Unlikely
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
I'll make sure that doesn't happen. I'm scared of that prospect.
 
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DeletedUser123xyz

DeletedUser123xyz

just a dream within a dream…
Aug 16, 2025
48
Hopefully not
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,234
I hope not... 👍
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
801
I really hope not
How much more do I have to suffer to find the peace I've been waiting for? I only need peace and nothing else
 
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mysticatedwine

mysticatedwine

rotting autistic sun
Mar 4, 2025
204
i'll probably be. things have gotten a little better and my times have not been as painful lately. in the middle of 2026 however i will be left alone. my roommate/best friend will have moved, my two only friends at university will be away from me. i will still have no support from my family for my gender struggles, which i suspect will drift them away from me.

so I'll probably not have much to lose at this point, considering i really dislike myself and my friends and family are my only reasons to live. i'll probably be really suicidal and more determined as ever to ctb. time will tell
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I will. It's a few months away.I might not get through 2026 though.
 
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Signal

Signal

Member
Feb 3, 2023
31
Probably, I'm too much of a coward to really ctb and things doesn't seem to be getting better so I don't really have much of a choice left
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,114
I don't wish to be, all I wish for is to be gone with this dreadful and cruel torturous existence finally all forgotten but of course I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully to escape from the futile and torturous abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake, all wish for is to peacefully cease existing.

I just wish to never suffer again, no matter what I'll always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this cruel existence that to me is just waiting to die, existing to me will always be so deeply undesirable, it's just pain, suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable, it's all I could hope for in this existence so torturous.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,342
i hope not .
 
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Eternal Disaster

Eternal Disaster

IHaveDemonsInMyHead
Aug 3, 2025
113
I hope I don't see 2026.
 
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lasttogo

Waiting for.... Something
Aug 20, 2025
69
I believe so. My method is within reaching distance, but inaccessible. I know a local place that sells what I need, but I need a membership of sorts to get it, and even if I sold everything I own I still couldn't afford the sign on fee. There is one way around this, but it would be incriminating and I won't take someone down with me.

I won't be less vague, sorry to anyone that would like me to be. I should have acquired it when I still could have.

I am also exploring an interesting type of "love" currently. It's very honest. I'd like to see where it goes. I feel guilty about this, knowing I could leave in 5 years or 5 days. But I believe I will be around for a while, unless impulsivity wins.
 
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deep-sleeper

deep-sleeper

Member
Aug 16, 2025
94
I'd say it's 50-50, it depends on how exponentially shit my life becomes
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
554
I'm planning my CTB to be this year, so hopefully not.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,153
Yes probably. It will depend on several things. And SI is so strong...
 
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princexhhn

princexhhn

did i make a mistake?
Sep 26, 2023
474
I really hope not… TT
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I wouldn't doubt it if I wasnt
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,341
I am rotting slowly and painfully
my amputation gave me time to plan a good exit
but I wish I had not survived the sepsis
I went to the hospital because I could not stand the pain
at that time I did not know I had a sepsis
I did not think I was dying
 
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memento-mori

memento-mori

😴
Jul 1, 2025
379
yes but only for the first half
 
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thelostautistic

Arcanist
Jul 31, 2025
432
I hope not. I want to be gone before the end of the year
 
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Traveller12724

Experienced
May 14, 2024
291
I really need to be gone by then
 
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somewhatdeadly

somewhatdeadly

one more day
Jun 6, 2025
90
prolly,hope not.
 
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feakfjnkje

Member
Mar 31, 2024
68
HELL NO LOL.
Out soon in a couple of months.
 
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totokk

totokk

New Member
Feb 21, 2025
4
Most likely, but my really bad periods seem to come cyclically in jan-feb, so we'll see about then
 
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Mytimeisending

Mytimeisending

theendisinevitable
Aug 10, 2025
76
I hope not
 
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nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
117
If things go my way, I won't be.
 
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WhiteSkinRedBlood

WhiteSkinRedBlood

Member
Aug 17, 2025
20
I really hope not, but it's likely. Won't be here any longer than that though.
 
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