Qverty7455
Student
- Sep 28, 2019
- 195
First I would like to thank everyone on this forum for being kind and helpful. I hope everyone will find meaning in life or peace in their final moments with whatever they choose.
I know there is a lot of SN threads and stuff like that but it's very hard to search more than hundreds of threads for one thing so I hope you guys will forgive me and try to help me in my probably last or 2nd last post(last should be goodbye but we shall see). I decided to do it in February if things get ugly and there is no miracle. But I want to make my preparations now.
I have meto and will order SN soon (I should have ordered it already but I was scared of the power decrease. I know if I won't open it should be okay but still).
I even have some stuff like rivotril or olanzapine / mirtazapine but I won't probably use it because I want to have as little stuff inside as possible to reduce the chance of vomiting.
So there is my schedule:
1st day:
8:00 10mg Meto
16:00 10mg Meto
24:00 10mg Meto
2nd day:
8:00 10mg Meto
16:00 10mg Meto
There I don't know if I should use the ibubrofen or nah...I am scared it will increase the chance of vomiting because it's irritant to stomach so I will probably skip it because I had headaches my whole life anyway.
23:15 3x10mg Meto
and my SN drink will be 24:00 or maybe I will extend the whole procedure (day 1 and day 2 by 1 hour because I want to ingest the SN at 1 in the morning)
But I am most concerned about fasting. How much hours before ingesting SN I should stop eating? I would probably be okay with eating last on day 1 but I am scared having empty stomach for 24hours will increase the chance of vomiting. I want to leave this planet clean and I know people defecate when they CTB most of the time...
I know this regimen is mostly okay because I used the tutorial on there to write it but I am just making sure because if it's the last thing I will do I want to make sure it will be 100% precise. I am just concerned about the ibubrofen and fasting.
I will be probably lurking there for the next month but won't write anything because I am kinda decised about my faith and if nothing changes I will proceed.
Like jonghyun wrote in his last words.
"If I can't help myself breathe properly it's better to stop breathing at all. "
And last question. I should probably buy some pocket scale right? I will do it in hotel room because I don't want to rot long. I will use the pocket scale to weight 20g of SN(I am 187cm tall but 85kg so probably 25g? share your ideas on this one aswell please) than I will use a plastic bottle with water 50ml of water and mix it together and shake and drink. I will probably prepare 2 of these bottles in case of vomiting so I will drink the second one and hope that enough stuff gets through to do the job because I won't call ambulance and I don't want to fail. Because if I came all the way to do this I don't want to back down.
Take care everyone and I love you ♥
I know there is a lot of SN threads and stuff like that but it's very hard to search more than hundreds of threads for one thing so I hope you guys will forgive me and try to help me in my probably last or 2nd last post(last should be goodbye but we shall see). I decided to do it in February if things get ugly and there is no miracle. But I want to make my preparations now.
I have meto and will order SN soon (I should have ordered it already but I was scared of the power decrease. I know if I won't open it should be okay but still).
I even have some stuff like rivotril or olanzapine / mirtazapine but I won't probably use it because I want to have as little stuff inside as possible to reduce the chance of vomiting.
So there is my schedule:
1st day:
8:00 10mg Meto
16:00 10mg Meto
24:00 10mg Meto
2nd day:
8:00 10mg Meto
16:00 10mg Meto
There I don't know if I should use the ibubrofen or nah...I am scared it will increase the chance of vomiting because it's irritant to stomach so I will probably skip it because I had headaches my whole life anyway.
23:15 3x10mg Meto
and my SN drink will be 24:00 or maybe I will extend the whole procedure (day 1 and day 2 by 1 hour because I want to ingest the SN at 1 in the morning)
But I am most concerned about fasting. How much hours before ingesting SN I should stop eating? I would probably be okay with eating last on day 1 but I am scared having empty stomach for 24hours will increase the chance of vomiting. I want to leave this planet clean and I know people defecate when they CTB most of the time...
I know this regimen is mostly okay because I used the tutorial on there to write it but I am just making sure because if it's the last thing I will do I want to make sure it will be 100% precise. I am just concerned about the ibubrofen and fasting.
I will be probably lurking there for the next month but won't write anything because I am kinda decised about my faith and if nothing changes I will proceed.
Like jonghyun wrote in his last words.
"If I can't help myself breathe properly it's better to stop breathing at all. "
And last question. I should probably buy some pocket scale right? I will do it in hotel room because I don't want to rot long. I will use the pocket scale to weight 20g of SN(I am 187cm tall but 85kg so probably 25g? share your ideas on this one aswell please) than I will use a plastic bottle with water 50ml of water and mix it together and shake and drink. I will probably prepare 2 of these bottles in case of vomiting so I will drink the second one and hope that enough stuff gets through to do the job because I won't call ambulance and I don't want to fail. Because if I came all the way to do this I don't want to back down.
Take care everyone and I love you ♥