I think I am not the only person with that question in mind since the recent events. Personally I was not that scared about getting a welfare check due to the fact I never ordered SN. Inter alia because of such scenarios. I think I will ctb in the end and I planned to commit suicide with SN maybe I will have to change my plans. Suicide seems to become more and more difficult. I really feel trapped without any escape.
I was quite shocked when I read some threads. Like the police knocks at your door at 2 a.m. and randsacks your home. That sounds pretty scary. Personally I am pretty pretty sure this would be hellish dangerous for my mental health. My sleep rhythm is very sensitive. The stress would be unbearable. I probably had to take a break of college which would decrease my chances of recovery a lot. But well my mental health is already very fragile so I also cannot stop posting. So well I am fucked but I already knew that all along.
I am not sure but some people were forced to psych wards? I mean the members of this forum won't sympathize more with the psychiatry if they are forced to a psych ward. I was a couple of times in clinics and the environment at least in the psych ward I was in was let's say very mediocre. This is why I recommend people to go voluntary to a clinic if they want to force you. If you cooperate they will treat you way better. When I was acute suicidal I could negogiate to stay in an open clinic I am pretty glad that I succeeded due to the fact the life quality was there way better.
I don't really want to cheer on the psych ward bashing but my stay was not good. I was highly psychotic and a girl molested me at the first day and I was very anxious about all the mentally unwell people. They want to to protect acute suicidal people. But the condition of the psych ward I was in could not help me as a suicidal person at all. I mean if I want to die someone should give me a nice home, some money, yummy food and real substantial help. They will say this is not the necessary immediate help. Well I think one has to differentiate. I am suicidal since a decade. And as a former psychiatrist once said about me. "Well we cannot lock him up forever." I mean the money the state pays the psych ward, the police, maybe the fire service and the ambulance would have better been invested if they instead gave me a check 5 figures. This could postpone my suicide AND improve my life quality.
The whole thing sounds still surreal to me. I don't know how likely it is that all members get a welfare check. I was surprised someone was told that the SN is a legal substance and they tested it for him. So it is not necessarily a punishment for illegal behavior? I don't really understand their motivation. They are concerned about the well-being of the people who acquired it. But they treated the affected people very differently. I cannot imagine they would be able to give every forum member a welfare check even if they got the IP. I would also be scared about the neighbors, my family and mental stability. On the other hand I am not doing something illegal, already was a bunch of times in clinics and my life is already ruined. I think it would cost a lot of resources to trace all members of this forum. Then they had to differentiate between the behavior of all members and treat everyone from case to case.
I cannot rule it out. But I don't expect it to happen. I cannot change it anyway. At least for me such a welfare check would not help at all. Quite the opposite.
I was quite shocked when I read some threads. Like the police knocks at your door at 2 a.m. and randsacks your home. That sounds pretty scary. Personally I am pretty pretty sure this would be hellish dangerous for my mental health. My sleep rhythm is very sensitive. The stress would be unbearable. I probably had to take a break of college which would decrease my chances of recovery a lot. But well my mental health is already very fragile so I also cannot stop posting. So well I am fucked but I already knew that all along.
I am not sure but some people were forced to psych wards? I mean the members of this forum won't sympathize more with the psychiatry if they are forced to a psych ward. I was a couple of times in clinics and the environment at least in the psych ward I was in was let's say very mediocre. This is why I recommend people to go voluntary to a clinic if they want to force you. If you cooperate they will treat you way better. When I was acute suicidal I could negogiate to stay in an open clinic I am pretty glad that I succeeded due to the fact the life quality was there way better.
I don't really want to cheer on the psych ward bashing but my stay was not good. I was highly psychotic and a girl molested me at the first day and I was very anxious about all the mentally unwell people. They want to to protect acute suicidal people. But the condition of the psych ward I was in could not help me as a suicidal person at all. I mean if I want to die someone should give me a nice home, some money, yummy food and real substantial help. They will say this is not the necessary immediate help. Well I think one has to differentiate. I am suicidal since a decade. And as a former psychiatrist once said about me. "Well we cannot lock him up forever." I mean the money the state pays the psych ward, the police, maybe the fire service and the ambulance would have better been invested if they instead gave me a check 5 figures. This could postpone my suicide AND improve my life quality.
The whole thing sounds still surreal to me. I don't know how likely it is that all members get a welfare check. I was surprised someone was told that the SN is a legal substance and they tested it for him. So it is not necessarily a punishment for illegal behavior? I don't really understand their motivation. They are concerned about the well-being of the people who acquired it. But they treated the affected people very differently. I cannot imagine they would be able to give every forum member a welfare check even if they got the IP. I would also be scared about the neighbors, my family and mental stability. On the other hand I am not doing something illegal, already was a bunch of times in clinics and my life is already ruined. I think it would cost a lot of resources to trace all members of this forum. Then they had to differentiate between the behavior of all members and treat everyone from case to case.
I cannot rule it out. But I don't expect it to happen. I cannot change it anyway. At least for me such a welfare check would not help at all. Quite the opposite.
