oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
If you're decided on suicide why're you still here?
 
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BobbyPellitt

BobbyPellitt

Leap of Faith
Sep 4, 2019
83
Fear. I'm too much of a pussy to actually pull the trigger.
 
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Oyoy

Oyoy

Spatula
Feb 2, 2020
741
I don't want to hurt people who are there for me. Parents a love and friends. I have fear of disappointing g_d too.
I don't want to hurt people who are there for me. Parents a love and friends. I have fear of disappointing g_d too.
Thanks for asking. I am and have been self destructive for a while.
Fear. I'm too much of a pussy to actually pull the trigger.
Don't go because you make people feel better.
 
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oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
I want to go but idk if I should.
 
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SHThrowAway213

SHThrowAway213

That's the hell I live with
Apr 19, 2018
658
I have to wait until October.
Me and my husband are going to 2 events, one music festival in June and seeing Jimmy Carr in October.
He won't get the chance to do them again after I die, so I'm sticking around so he can enjoy these last 2 events.
 
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gentleflower

gentleflower

Student
Jun 6, 2019
105
My parents and the faint hope that something can still change
 
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maka

maka

this is for you, mi cuervito 𓇢𓆸
Apr 23, 2019
161
Failed attempt. Plus, I don't necessarily want to die, I just don't want to go through the pain that I'm feeling right now. And there's no way around it, so death is my only option.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
At this point just fear.
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,444
Two reasons: the first is that there is one thing I haven't tried to regain my freedom. I can't try it on my own, do a DIY because there's no way I can pull it off alone.
The second is simpler: after mom's murder, I don't want my dad to experience another loss of this caliber. Old man is still kicking ass, so this delay may take a while...

Edit: the first reason is brain surgery.
 
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Scooby-Doo

Scooby-Doo

Student
Oct 10, 2019
133
I'm just waiting for that something to push me over the edge. I've isolated myself from family. I have a stressful job which I struggle with. If I loose that then it's definitely end for me. I don't see any future, I just take things one day at a time and just keep going.
 
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NeverHungry

NeverHungry

To eat or not to eat...
Jan 30, 2020
72
My family, mainly. I'm scared to die, but I know it's what I need to do.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Like many other members, I don't want to cause pain to people that are close to me, especially not my parents. Just as important, I want to give it a little bit more time to see if my life situation will change or if I can find a way to cope with it, although my hopes are very low. It might not matter, though, because I'll probably end it on an impulse anyway. If I'm sitting here typing and posting a year from now, it's a kind of victory I guess, albeit a pathetic and probably pointless one.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Like many other members, I don't want to cause pain to people that are close to me, especially not my parents. Just as important, I want to give it a little bit more time to see if my life situation will change or if I can find a way to cope with it, although my hopes are very low. It might not matter, though, because I'll probably end it on an impulse anyway. If I'm sitting here typing and posting a year from now, it's a kind of victory I guess, albeit a pathetic and probably pointless one.
Cough. You have a job of watching me. ;)
 
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CarefulWithThatAxe

Experienced
Nov 7, 2019
296
SI and my dog
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
True. That requires that you stick around, though. It's a deadlock, isn't it? ;)
And remember. I am on a week insomnia. You have your work cut out for you.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I'm on the fence really. I don't really have anyone that would miss me anymore. I'm just trying to squeeze every last bit of happiness out of my life before I give up entirely. Maybe in the process of doing that things will turn around.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I'm on the fence really. I don't really have anyone that would miss me anymore. I'm just trying to squeeze every last bit of happiness out of my life before I give up entirely. Maybe in the process of doing that things will turn around.
We would. ;)
 
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MrOptions

MrOptions

Let it go. This to shall pass.
Jan 6, 2020
178
Others depend on me financially and emotionally. Guilt is a motherfucker.
 
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Deleted member 13227

Good night
Dec 21, 2019
71
I am just waiting for the right timing
 
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Rosiel

Rosiel

Member
Jan 24, 2019
45
I am trying to give life all that I have left before I go. I am so glad to have found what seems like a reliable, peaceful way to die though. That alone gave me a bit of incentive to try going through the major challenges in my life - the idea that I can always CTB if it really gets unbearable. It is likely that if things don't get better, I will CTB this summer.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Planning is taking longer than anticipated.
 
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Nnana

Member
Dec 1, 2019
78
I probably have the strongest survival instinct and that's hell. I can't manage to kill myself even though I'm suffering intensely.
 
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UpandDownPrincess

UpandDownPrincess

Elementalist
Dec 31, 2019
833
Two reasons: my suicidal urges have faded since I joined and my husband. If I go, I will doom him to a miserable life. I'm just not sure if I can do that.
 
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BooGirl

BooGirl

Warlock
Jan 10, 2020
750
Is there any particular rush?
 
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