Why should I even get out of bed every morning?

[fivebeyond]

I no longer understand what makes me get out of bed every day.
For a long time now I have been thinking that if I had such an opportunity, I would just sleep as long as possible every day.
Yes, I have my dog who needs to go outside, eat, drink, and I love my dog. Yes, I need to go to workouts because I'm afraid of getting fat, I need to take care of the house, I need to do this, I need to do that...
What's the point, if my life is doomed?
Some of people might say "but you're so young!"... yet almost every day I feel that I want to rest for eternity, as if I have lived for more than 90+ years already. Every single major difficulty I encounter, makes me feel numb and shows how miserable and weak I am when, shows, that I won't succeed in my life at all. Someone once told me "your life is awesome compared to others, and you still complain," and yes, damn it, if I am like that, then I am miserable.
I had my first suicidal attempt almost a year ago, and today when I feel bad, I try not to show it to anyone, because I feel guilty - I couldn't recover.

Some may think that I am just a young boy, inexperienced in life, who has given up on everything in advance for no reason... but I don't care.

Call me an egoist, but I just want to be allowed to retire in peace when I decide to do so. Without anyone telling me "do you have any idea how worried you've made others?".

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to sleep for all eternity, only eternal sleep is desirable to me, I really wish there's acceptance towards not wanting to exist.

 

[aslank98]

You shouldn't feel guilty, as far as we know none of us picked being in this existence. I suppose we gotta make the best of it. I try and stick to a solid routine everyday. It makes time go quicker. But I understand your frustrations

 

[F@#$]

Well dude I'm an old guy who's felt the same since I was young. My biggest regret is that I chickened out when I took my dads pistol to the basement when I was 19. Do what you will, this is just my 2 cents.

 

[Ligottian]

I feel like I'm getting closer over the last few years. The pistol in my drawer seems to beckon like a temptress saying "I'm always here for you, you know".

 

[J&L383]

I hear you, OP. Whether you are young or old, time is all relative. I'm not young anymore, but I'm not super old - just getting on in years, and getting out of bed is not easy. .

 

[davidtorez]

Same feeling here. Middle aged man, no idea why I even bother. I have no life , just wracked with physical pains and recently lost my job because of my disabilities. Life sucks, better not to wake up

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think a lot of what we end up doing is to try and stop life getting worse! If we know we're stuck here for a while. If there are no immediate or feasible plans to CTB, then there are plenty of ways life can get worse if we don't fulfil certain needs. If we stay in bed for too long, we get bed sores. Not keeping up with hygienne increases the risk of sores and infection. Not eating properly or getting exercise can make us prone to other illnesses. Many of us will need to support ourselves financially which means work or else, homelessness.

I think it becomes more about what someone is willing to put up with in life rather than something they actively want. We end up doing certain things we probably hate because the result of not doing them would make matters worse for ourselves.

It's a struggle though and worse, I think resentment starts to fester. I'm so full of resentment these days at being brought into this shit show to begin with!

 

[rokonie]

I get out of bed because im stuck on this planet in the meantime and don't want my quality of life to get even worse, but that's about it really. Hoping one day i'll find the means for a way out that doesn't require too many hoops and pain to get through.
And tbh it's valid to feel this way no matter the age. Apathy and "doomer" attitudes are so common now in GenZ because life genuinely looks exhausting and not worth participating in. It's not right that society is structured in a way that makes so many young people want out.

 

[davidtorez]

I think a lot of what we end up doing is to try and stop life getting worse! If we know we're stuck here for a while. If there are no immediate or feasible plans to CTB, then there are plenty of ways life can get worse if we don't fulfil certain needs. If we stay in bed for too long, we get bed sores. Not keeping up with hygienne increases the risk of sores and infection. Not eating properly or getting exercise can make us prone to other illnesses. Many of us will need to support ourselves financially which means work or else, homelessness.

I think it becomes more about what someone is willing to put up with in life rather than something they actively want. We end up doing certain things we probably hate because the result of not doing them would make matters worse for ourselves.

It's a struggle though and worse, I think resentment starts to fester. I'm so full of resentment these days at being brought into this shit show to begin with!

Totally agree with this! This is how I've been existing from 2018 until now!