why is it so hard to die

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I'm in the hospital right now as i write this i jumped about 13 stories my foot ankle and knees are broken/shattered lucky i have a cover story so this doesn't look like an attempt so no mental hospital for me but this is my fourth attempt I've hung jumped and took pills twice it seems i can not die when i get out of here and back to good health i want to try something new any advise

 

[befree]

Here you can find an overview of common methods and books:

Need ideas

I want to end things because I'm tired of feeling like a failure and always being wrong about things. I can barely be an adult and will never have more than a minimum wage job. What are ways to end things quickly and peacefully, preferably that I can hide from a spouse that works from home?

sanctioned-suicide.net

considering methods

whats the best kind of method that's easily accessible. I was considering Hannah Baker style but that seems super messy and painful. I don't have any way to get my hands on N or anything like that sooo

sanctioned-suicide.net

This is just a general information. I do not encourage you to commit suicide and to use these methods. You act on your own responsibility.

 

[020x]

failing is the worst because you become hopeless that it will never work and you'll never be able to leave comfortably. but that's not the case, it will at some point. not everything works in the first try, i've went through it, and i still believe that it's mainly courage, keeping us here, everything else happens out of luck and beyond our control.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

OMG surviving a 13 storey jump must be so agoniszing and painful mentally. Sorry OP you have to go through this. Please consider other more peaceful methods should you really have the desire to CTB. I hope you can recover quickly and you can find peace!

 

[failed life]

Wow sorry to hear that. I didn't think it would be possible to survive a 13 storey jump, but as you say it's so hard to die.
In terms of methods i was going to take the SN route until I discovered it was impossible to get where I am. I'm now thinking the nitrogen method looks like a good way to CTB. It does look complicated but there's plenty of info on here and it seems to promise a very fast and peaceful death.

 

[Zegers]

Such a bad luck... jumping from a 13 storey is a very high chance of ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate how it's so difficult to permanently escape from all the suffering, it's so inhumane denying people a right to die in peace and expecting them to be prisoners to this existence until they die anyway. It's truly such a hellish reality we exist in where we cannot just leave in a peaceful and reliable way, it really sounds so horrible what you have to endure, failing ctb is exactly what I fear. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[UKscotty]

What did you land on? A net? How can someone get only broken ankles from a 130 foot fall? Are you sure you counted the floors right? Something seems off to me.

 

[painfullife123]

Yeah think there's more to this.

 

[jonward55]

First post, 13 floors ?

 

[krokilo]

I hate how it's so difficult to permanently escape from all the suffering, it's so inhumane denying people a right to die in peace and expecting them to be prisoners to this existence until they die anyway. It's truly such a hellish reality we exist in where we cannot just leave in a peaceful and reliable way, it really sounds so horrible what you have to endure, failing ctb is exactly what I fear. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

Man, you writing this shit under every post for a long time, just use SN or charcoal

 

[UKscotty]

Man, you writing this shit under every post for a long time, just use SN or charcoal

SN is extremely unreliable and dependent on other drugs. It was hyped up by some folks making significant money selling it. Its not really a reliable method.

 

[krokilo]

SN is extremely unreliable and dependent on other drugs. It was hyped up by some folks making significant money selling it. Its not really a reliable method.

it costs around 2$ for 100g in my country, about what money do you talk?:) and where did you find that SN is

extremely unreliable?

 

[CW36]

SN is extremely unreliable and dependent on other drugs. It was hyped up by some folks making significant money selling it. Its not really a reliable method.

What success rate do they roughly have it at? I'm in the UK and they've made it hard to get hold of, for good reason.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

SN is extremely unreliable and dependent on other drugs. It was hyped up by some folks making significant money selling it. Its not really a reliable method.

How is it "not really reliable" when there's a good amount of people here who did Ctb even without other meds to aid the process, also, with the way things are going, less and less reliable methods will be left to use as governments push to reduce access to anything like SN so as far it's concerned having access to SN is better than jumping or even hanging.

Stating that it's "not really a reliable method" is just false, it may be anything close to N but it's been very useful when done right.

 

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What did you land on? A net? How can someone get only broken ankles from a 130 foot fall? Are you sure you counted the floors right? Something seems off to me.

i landed on a parked car i didn't see it before i jumped but very much noticed when i landed i landed feet first then collapsed to the left of me idk whose car that is and still don't know and no not just broken ankles my left shoulder is torn the muscle is not bone a cracked rib on the left side and the left wrist is dislocated

First post, 13 floors ?

i put in the registration form i was going to make a post asking what can i do to ctb but i tried this way when i got my phone back i saw the welcome email for here then made this post

 

[Kera]

I'm in the hospital right now as i write this i jumped about 13 stories my foot ankle and knees are broken/shattered lucky i have a cover story so this doesn't look like an attempt so no mental hospital for me but this is my fourth attempt I've hung jumped and took pills twice it seems i can not die when i get out of here and back to good health i want to try something new any advise

Do you do jumping fitness in your free time?

Our Creator arranged life so that we have a survival instinct. This one is not so easy to trick.

I already fail because of the type that comes into question for me, including the procurement.

 

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If I understand correctly, do you do jumping fitness professionally or in your spare time?
But it's not entirely clear to me whether you jumped over 13 floors, from house to house? Or from the 13th floor down?

Our Creator arranged life so that we have a survival instinct. This one is not so easy to trick.

I already fail because of the type that comes into question for me, including the procurement.

13 floors down i jumped from a car garage and yeah i do think that survival instinct came in i went down head first and ended up on my feet

 

[krokilo]

13 этажей вниз я выпрыгнул из гаража и да я думаю что сработал инстинкт выживания я упал головой вперед и оказался на ногах

how much pain did you felt from that jump? Or you was unconscious? Sorry for asking that

 

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часw much pain did you felt from that jump? Or you was unconscious? Sorry for asking that

a lot worse than pills i remembered landing i was awake maybe for a few seconds or for a few minutes i really don't know but i do remember the pain and then passing out of maybe a pain overload or shock one way or another i was out woke up in an ambulance they put me on some pain meds asked me a few things no clue to what my memory is hazy around that part of the day maybe i was passed out i dont know but I'm awake now

 

[Kera]

13 floors down i jumped from a car garage and yeah i do think that survival instinct came in i went down head first and ended up on my feet

Phew, that's foully!! I wish you a speedy recovery and keep my fingers crossed that you will not suffer any permanent damage. LG

 

[ChronicPain23]

Have you jumped to your feet? If I jump I will turn my head down, with no chance of survival.

 

[gag_order]

In an ideal world, it isn't. All it takes is something to stop your heart. Unfortunately, we do not live in an ideal world and society absolutely loves to gatekeep that something and regard themselves as heroes. I am so sorry for what you had to go through.