stunnednaddled
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- Mar 9, 2020
- 29
One day I can pass out by just simply leaning my head forward and sitting on the floor, no problems, no pain, no exploding head, no trouble even breathing yet I get dizzy after 5 seconds and I can feel myself slipping away no problem. The next day I crush my windpipe, there's a lot of pain, my head feels like it's gonna pop off and I can't even get the slightest bit dizzy. Same body position, same noose position, same exact thing I do the day before. The way I need to position it I can't do it with my knees off the floor because the rope always slides up. The body position is not an issue, I've nearly succeeded like that in the past, still have no clue how I survived. Why is it when I'm the most desperate to go, and I am more ready than ever and I truly attempt, rather than practice, I just fucking can't physically get there? My neck is so sore right now, I had it as tight as it can go for like 10 minutes trying everything I could and I can't even get the fuzzy feeling, much less get myself to black out or die just nothing happens but immense pain and frustration.