
Emerita
Time is terminal
- Jan 16, 2025
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I saw a post asking the meaning of CTB now Im curious of how it came to be, is it metaphorical or literal?
There's no bus to death. There was that man who stabbed, beheaded, and cannibalized someone on a bus, but that's not related to suicide. Buses crash, resulting in death, but again, that's not suicide. Getting hit by a bus can be a suicidal act, but is that really "catching" the bus? I mean, if your arms are out, it might look like an attempt to catch it, but it feels more like a bowling ball knocking over a pin.
Catching the bus could represent the bridge between life and death. The bus might symbolize the act of suicide, while waiting at the bus stop signifies the anticipation of that act. Getting onto the bus is when the attempt begins, with the destination being the next stop aka death. The bus ride is the act of dying if you don't make it to the stop you've essentially survived your attempt.
Also who's driving it? Do I drive it?
Is it a community thing, a unique way of communicating a desire to end it using an unconventional phrase because the outside world doesn't understand suicide in the first place?
It's interesting to see how we adopt dialects in online spaces. I know it was used in alt.suicide.holiday. But who is the OG bus catcher, was there a situation or person who claimed the saying or did it just kind of find its way as being the euphemism for suicide? Does someone know the reason/ history of it?
There's no bus to death. There was that man who stabbed, beheaded, and cannibalized someone on a bus, but that's not related to suicide. Buses crash, resulting in death, but again, that's not suicide. Getting hit by a bus can be a suicidal act, but is that really "catching" the bus? I mean, if your arms are out, it might look like an attempt to catch it, but it feels more like a bowling ball knocking over a pin.
Catching the bus could represent the bridge between life and death. The bus might symbolize the act of suicide, while waiting at the bus stop signifies the anticipation of that act. Getting onto the bus is when the attempt begins, with the destination being the next stop aka death. The bus ride is the act of dying if you don't make it to the stop you've essentially survived your attempt.
Also who's driving it? Do I drive it?
Is it a community thing, a unique way of communicating a desire to end it using an unconventional phrase because the outside world doesn't understand suicide in the first place?
It's interesting to see how we adopt dialects in online spaces. I know it was used in alt.suicide.holiday. But who is the OG bus catcher, was there a situation or person who claimed the saying or did it just kind of find its way as being the euphemism for suicide? Does someone know the reason/ history of it?
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