snowyyy
in pursuit of freedom
- Nov 26, 2023
- 35
today I was in the store, I noticed the mother of my former classmate with whom I used to be close, but she has changed and we have broken contact.
my mother talked to her for a while, I was next to her. she boasted that her daughter, has already passed her driver's license, that she is happy, has a super school and a boyfriend.
it made me sick, why can't I be like that?
instead of enjoying life, I'm rotting in bed. i don't have the strength to do anything, i'm not like my other peers. i stand apart from the rest, as i always have.
on the one hand, i don't give a damn, because i'm going to die eventually anyway, and i don't want to change anything anymore. but on the other hand, somewhere it hurts me. it strikes me that i was sent into this world as a human being, and i don't know how to function like a human being.
I know that such a thing may not move everyone, but today something hurt me. sorry.
my mother talked to her for a while, I was next to her. she boasted that her daughter, has already passed her driver's license, that she is happy, has a super school and a boyfriend.
it made me sick, why can't I be like that?
instead of enjoying life, I'm rotting in bed. i don't have the strength to do anything, i'm not like my other peers. i stand apart from the rest, as i always have.
on the one hand, i don't give a damn, because i'm going to die eventually anyway, and i don't want to change anything anymore. but on the other hand, somewhere it hurts me. it strikes me that i was sent into this world as a human being, and i don't know how to function like a human being.
I know that such a thing may not move everyone, but today something hurt me. sorry.
