Why dont I enjoy anything anymore?

[Mytimeisending]

I can't recall a time I've enjoyed something, it's been that long ago.
Ive tried in relationships but as soon as I hear "I love you" I run. I don't seem to feel love. I don't know if that's normal. But love doesn't bring me joy nothing does.
I used to have hobbies, now I don't even have the energy to think about them.
I feel like I'm on auto pilot everyday, and life is passing me by.
I feel alive for others, and it's a miserable existence.
I put myself in stupid situations just to feel something.
How do I at least try to feel something? Will my feelings ever come back? Is this my life now?

 

[concession]

Maybe try thinking about what is your screen time daily and how much drugs (alcohol counts) are you on during the week and then compare this with what is considered to be healthy by a health professionals?

(Bear in mind that I am fucking miserable and know shit about wellbeing)

 

[bankai]

I could have written that post myself. It's the same thing for me. I'm just existing. I have pretty much everything at my disposal, but I don't enjoy any of it. I don't even indulge in it anymore. I just lost that ability.

 

[rainwillneverstop]

depression

 

[Mytimeisending]

I could have written that post myself. It's the same thing for me. I'm just existing. I have pretty much everything at my disposal, but I don't enjoy any of it. I don't even indulge in it anymore. I just lost that ability.

Honestly it just makes you want to feel something, something is better than nothing and numbness.

Maybe try thinking about what is your screen time daily and how much drugs (alcohol counts) are you on during the week and then compare this with what is considered to be healthy by a health professionals?

(Bear in mind that I am fucking miserable and know shit about wellbeing)

Most of my screen time is spent on here

 

[bankai]

Honestly it just makes you want to feel something, something is better than nothing and numbness.

Yeah, honestly, I'm not even depressed. It's just like I can't feel anything anymore. It doesn't matter what I do or try. I'm at like a baseline of nothingness. If that makes sense.

 

[TooManyChances]

Anhedonia. It's common with depression.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I think for me it's more about not wanting to feel at this stage. Choosing to remain empty inside as opposed to "living", and then being killed again and dying inside. On autopilot yes, but I force myself to still get out and do something, to not just stay in my room. If I don't go outside, for a walk, or a cycle, even if only to a nearby shop, I go into a really deep and dark place. A little bit of fresh air and sunshine helps me to not totally lose it, also smoking weed in the evenings. I hope you can find a small something in your days, to make it just a little brighter. Sending hugs your way.

 

[UnusedGate]

I've had this before, obvious answer being do stuff that makes you closer to nature/people like going outside and exercising. Sucks when you can't do those things tho because of the depression. It's like a shitty cycle. However, it could be your brain fucking up, in which case you'd need professional help.

 

[Dejected 55]

I haven't enjoyed anything for a long time. I don't know if I really truly enjoyed much even when I think I remember enjoying things in the past.

 

[fatty44]

My screen time is insane actually. But I grew up like this and literally don't know how to deal with this problem. It's been my escape from a schizophrenic mother. My profession also requires me to look at screens constantly.

I feel like I have to die. I don't fit in and I will end up on the street or starve to death or something. I can't take care of myself. Please I need help.

My screen time is insane actually. But I grew up like this and literally don't know how to deal with this problem. It's been my escape from a schizophrenic mother. My profession also requires me to look at screens constantly.

I feel like I have to die. I don't fit in and I will end up on the street or starve to death or something. I can't take care of myself. Please I need help.

Sorry for making this about myself. I'm in despair

 

[Mytimeisending]

Yeah, honestly, I'm not even depressed. It's just like I can't feel anything anymore. It doesn't matter what I do or try. I'm at like a baseline of nothingness. If that makes sense.

Definitely makes sense I hope your feelings come back for you too, it's just annoying not knowing when isn't it. Lots of people have gave amazing advice on this thread, I'm going to try get outside more see if that helps, maybe that might work for you

My screen time is insane actually. But I grew up like this and literally don't know how to deal with this problem. It's been my escape from a schizophrenic mother. My profession also requires me to look at screens constantly.

I feel like I have to die. I don't fit in and I will end up on the street or starve to death or something. I can't take care of myself. Please I need help.

Sorry for making this about myself. I'm in despair

Don't be sorry! This is a safe place for us all, lots of people have gave amazing advice on this thread, maybe you could look through and try some things what you think might help you feel a lil better. I'm going to try get outside more see if nature helps. As for fitting in, don't worry about that I never did either it's a blessing in disguise means less people can hurt us.

I think for me it's more about not wanting to feel at this stage. Choosing to remain empty inside as opposed to "living", and then being killed again and dying inside. On autopilot yes, but I force myself to still get out and do something, to not just stay in my room. If I don't go outside, for a walk, or a cycle, even if only to a nearby shop, I go into a really deep and dark place. A little bit of fresh air and sunshine helps me to not totally lose it, also smoking weed in the evenings. I hope you can find a small something in your days, to make it just a little brighter. Sending hugs your way.

Smoking weed is the only thing helping me rn keeps me somewhat sane haha. I'm going to try spending more time outside with nature that might lift my spirits A bit.