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Why do you want to ctb?

  • Depression

    Votes: 19 21.8%
  • Poor career outlook

    Votes: 5 5.7%
  • Isolation

    Votes: 7 8.0%
  • Physical illness

    Votes: 16 18.4%
  • No partner or single

    Votes: 3 3.4%
  • Anxiety

    Votes: 7 8.0%
  • Other

    Votes: 30 34.5%

  • Total voters
    87
Zaynaldeen

Zaynaldeen

blackpilled subhuman manlet
Oct 18, 2018
108
In my case, everything applies here and the fact that everyone is a dickhead to me and treats me like a sack of shit.
 
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Kirakishou

Kirakishou

where is the truth?
Nov 1, 2018
46
I have a lot of reasons, it would be hard to put it in one paragraph. But to summerize it, I feel cornerd.
 
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BjartNO

Student
Sep 21, 2018
166
I have all of the reasons in the poll, every single one. The mental pain is unbearable, I can't take it anymore.
 
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AndyCurious

AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
Every day is a struggle, and I am tired of fighting. Been 30+ rough yrs...
 
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mattwitt

mattwitt

# 978
Jun 28, 2018
2,307
I have a lot of reasons, it would be hard to put it in one paragraph. But to summerize it, I feel cornerd.
That's where I am. I've reached the point where I think and feel like I have absolutely no other choice in life but to ctb
 
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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
My reason seems silly compared to the others here - I 'just' have a broken heart. But the exact circumstances mean it is impossible to carry on.
 
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WaitingForTheBus

WaitingForTheBus

Student
Oct 27, 2018
136
My reason seems silly compared to the others here - I 'just' have a broken heart. But the exact circumstances mean it is impossible to carry on.
Everyone has a legitimate reason for being here mate, there are no "silly" reasons. A broken heart may very well lead you to depression, anxiety, isolation. Your reason is very significant to you and that's all that matters. besides, i will guarantee plenty of others here will know exactly how you feel, myself included.
 
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Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
lmao it's just so funny because, like someone else mentioned, I have all those reasons in the poll. It's kind of jarring to notice all the stupid fucking things that are wrong with my life.

The question for me and maybe others should probably be 'why the fuckity fuck are you still here?'

i feel like i've been hanging on by a never-ending thread forever now. i have some positive things in my life, and occasionally i can still feel joy, but the end is certainly closing in on me, or me on it.

honestly the reason i haven't ctb already and the reason i have so many problems in my life probably stem from the same vacuum inside me where my 'spirit' to go out and try/do things used to reside. i just don't think i have it in me to do anything anymore.
 
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Eowyn

Eowyn

Member
Nov 4, 2018
41
Because the love of my life, said he could no longer be with me because I was too much of a burden and made his life miserable. I really wish I could forget him as easily as he has forgotten about me.

It's one thing to *think* you are a burden, but to *know* you are one, to be told that you are one by the only person who ever made you feel alive... it is too much to bear.

When I tried to speak to him, he told me he hated me and that I should do it, and when I do, it will have ''nothing'' to do with him. Except he knows it is everything.
 
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WaitingForTheBus

WaitingForTheBus

Student
Oct 27, 2018
136
Because the love of my life, said he could no longer be with me because I was too much of a burden and made his life miserable. I really wish I could forget him as easily as he has forgotten about me.

It's one thing to *think* you are a burden, but to *know* you are one, to be told that you are one by the only person who ever made you feel alive... it is too much to bear.

When I tried to speak to him, he told me he hated me and that I should do it, and when I do, it will have ''nothing'' to do with him. Except he knows it is everything.
Sorry that he was such an ass to you. It can be hard to let go of the love you felt for someone special to you, even when they behave like a dick. You are here for a reason, all I can say is, don't let him win.
 
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Goldie

Specialist
Sep 6, 2018
307
Everyone has a legitimate reason for being here mate, there are no "silly" reasons. A broken heart may very well lead you to depression, anxiety, isolation. Your reason is very significant to you and that's all that matters. besides, i will guarantee plenty of others here will know exactly how you feel, myself included.
Thanks, that's very nice of you.
 
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Glim

Glim

Student
Jan 28, 2019
105
>have a nearly untreatable condition that most doctors don't aren't even aware of
>mental health issues
>Monotony of wageslaving (commute, 40+ hours minimum working, bills, taxes, investments, planning for retirement, office politics; not to mention cooking, cleaning, laundry, errands, etc that will eat into free time)
>fear of car accident
>fear of climate change + ensuing political strife and economic strife that would come with it
>tired of the hedonic treadmill and never being satisfied
>always felt alienated from society
>don't want to stick around to see my dad wither away and die
>want to die peacefully via N while I can still get it
>don't want to grow old and suffer all of the potential ailments and conditions that can arise from decaying
>paranoid over cosmic and natural disasters or mass war breaking out
 
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leaps

leaps

FUNERAL
Jan 16, 2019
250
I fucked my life up
 
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porksoda

porksoda

Member
Jan 28, 2019
20
Mental illness. Been in "treatment" since elementary school (now in my 20s), on every sort of medication, been hospitalized. It's just an endless cycle at this point, only thing that'll end it is CTB.
 
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Sickman75

Sickman75

Swing On The Spiral
Jan 27, 2019
572
Possible legal troubles
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Why isn't this poll multiple choice?
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
I could list a bunch of reasons, but nobody would care and besides they all boil down to one fact: I'm not looking forward to living and I just want to be dead.
 
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Cormok

Cormok

New Member
Jan 11, 2019
2
Depression, isolation, single, anxiety and other...
 
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