Why do you hate your live?

[CPT_Snake]

I mean out of the depression glasses, would you really qualify your life as "bad"?

Personally I do and here are my reasons
* Autism
* Social anxiety
* Dysthymia
* No interests in life (Professionally and personally)
* Living in a shit hole town/country without any opportunities of moving
* Not having any skills for anything that isn't scrolling on YouTube shorts
* No friends
* Self destructive behavior

Yours?

 

[intheenditdsntmatr]

Ruined my life by 17. Haven't done a single productive thing in 2 years

 

[derpyderpins]

work.

passage of time.

myself.

 

[themummyreturns]

Stopped being able to see my best friend and his family, they were my "happy place".

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't hate my own life. I hate existence itself

 

[divinemistress36]

Treatment resistant depression, cptsd, tbi, memory and cognitive issues. Life without a healthy functioning brain

 

[sximii]

Autism, and BPD caused by trauma which if you know what it is just makes everything wildly difficult. Being suicidal is kinda just part of BPD so I can't avoid it

 

[EvisceratedJester]

My life itself is fine. Never had to experience any major traumas and I would say that I'm pretty privileged overall. The only issue in my life is me. I suck, so I usually end up fucking things up for myself.

 

[arandomname]

Everything in my life is fine except for the only person I've loved leaving. Unfortunately the rest being fine doesn't really matter.

 

[lawlietsph]

Autism
Hormonal problems
Psoriasis
Lyme disease
Work
Money
And that I am destined to be alone.
People are horrible
Society is horrible
Friendship is a fake bullshit
Relationships are even worse
Nothing we do matters at all
We just don't matter
Money
Money
Money
Work
Money
Consumer society

 

[billie]

i hate my life because of my bpd

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I don't hate my own life. I hate existence itself

okay, but why is this real tho...
For me depression, severe complex PTSD, survivor's guilt, ADHD from neglect, having been born into an abusive neglectful family, society itself, this world is not something that should've existed, my personality not being good enough, I am weak vessel of my former self and am an easy target, I am a woman (I love being a woman and my fellow sisters) in this specific world, I have to stress a lot and deal with emotional turmoil every year, I hate existence and I have a learning disability because people were once apes that diseases and anything can happen in the womb because of genetics not matching up because people are monkeys...

 

[Haematemesis]

Because I hate the owner of it, myself.
Extreme social anxiety and depression
I think I have Asperger's but it is too hard to see the doctor and get diagnosed
Also self-image

 

[SilentSadness]

I am permanently uncomfortable and suffering. So, of course I would want to die.

 

[libitina]

because i'm ugly and have a plethora of mental illnesses

 

[themummyreturns]

Everything in my life is fine except for the only person I've loved leaving. Unfortunately the rest being fine doesn't really matter.

I feel this!

 

[Status_Death]

autism, being scared of others as well as rejection as a whole, lost my best friend, a bunch of my belongings have been thrown away that had a big emotional value to me among other things.

 

[daysnumbered]

My mind is the reason why my life sucks.

 

[F@#$]

The pointless day to day bullshit. Get go to work so I can spend my money on my bills while my boss gets richer. I don't give a fuck about anyone and nobody gives a fuck about me(including me). If it weren't for my obligation to my dogs there'd be a few more trauma cases in my area and I'd be gone.

 

[Arin]

* History of physical abuse as a child.
* Social isolation - no true friends who genuinely care for me.
* Various other childhood experiences.
* Emotional neglect & verbal abuse.
* History of severe bullying from peers, including regular assault & harassment.
* Being a transsexual (enough said.)
* Powerless & reliant on others - can't get my life together even if I want to.

And a number of other reasons. Sure, I could probably 'solve' some of these if I was able to go to therapy but other are permanent and will stay with me for the rest of my life, no matter what I do. It's hopeless.

 

[Namelesa]

• experiences of school and having to have to remember it
• feelings of emptiness and boredom caused by life being repetitive.
• trapped home so harder to ctb and have limited freedom
• too much of a emotional burden
• feeling intense guilt and self-hatred from some of the thoughts and things I have done
• often people leaving me causing me to feel worthless and increasing fear of abandonment

 

[kissmegoodbye]

my current family situation, past family situations (being abused, foster care stuff), autism, being socially awkward in general, being bullied while growing up, school and most people there, and never really being able to connect with anyone personally,,

 

[FuneralCry]

I will always hate existence as after all I see existence itself is the most torturous, cruel abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I see existence as just causing harm, tormenting existing beings until all is forgotten about for them in death anyway, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence. I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'll always see it as the most cruel, futile burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I really would never wish to be conscious of any of this at all, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way, to me existence itself is the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering. I'm so tired of being conscious enslaved in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I find it so tragic how I was forced into this horrific world burdened with this futile existence forced to suffer even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all and I'd always prefer to not exist than to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just to die in agony from old age. The thought of suffering for mych longer just to be tortured by old age is so unbearable to me, I hate existence as I just don't want to suffer at all, I want peace instead and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me peace from the terrible tragedy of existence.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I know this might sound stupid but I literally have all your options except, first, third and moving out of this city. Plus I have the years of abuse, no support and ability to change. Yes, I think this could be enough for me to hate my existence.

 

[whitetaildeer]

* (attempted) trafficking by my family shortly after my mother died
* an attempt to put me under a conservatorship, to get access to millions of dollars in a trust fund
* an (attempted) paid kidnapping, also by my family
* a rather stupid attempt to put me in an assisted living village by exaggerating my autism. this would have happened if i did not re-establish contact with my father and move in with him
* abuse of literally every variety from my mother
* surrounded by animal abuse my entire life
* viscerally vivid flashbacks of nearly all of the above
* ptsd that makes it difficult to even leave my house
* perfectionism, and this idea that i need to be either perfect or the best version of myself. either to deserve to live, or that i need to be the best version of myself before i die
* being transgender. this speaks for itself, but i don't know if i'm even trans or if i identify as such because of a lifetime's worth of trauma

and more i would rather not say or go into detail about. the things that are listed, i do not want to elaborate on

 

[bobby9089]

thanks to my family..emotional stress and guilt for making their lives worse.

 

[Mortiaris]

32 years old, with no real friends or connections, sometimes i talk to people only in work. Im good in everythink, great in nothink, in min/maxing world im useless. Even working 6 days in week sometimes 10h i cant afford my own house, without it no chance to find gf, in Poland womens and relations suck, if you are not perfect guy or not bad boy you are just a wallet or ignored, most times i end up in friend zones, becuse im good guy, and i hate it, that i cant change and be evil. Plus after years of alone fighting back with world, looking for relations and friends i got depressed, without big money there is no chance to even try to recover, i tried for few years, but psychologist just act like friends for money, when time is over they dont care, same with pharmacy. I want SS i was close few times, have places, have few methods, just w8 for moment when i would be low or drunk enough.

 

[Gangrel]

* BPD
* Social anxiety
* Dysthymia
* No interests in life
* Living in a shit hole town/country without any opportunities of moving
* Not having any skills for anything that isn't scrolling on YouTube shorts
* No friends
* Self destructive behavior
* Far away partner
* Gay in a homophobic place
* Work
* World in capitalism hell

 

[bluehawk]

depression
unavoidable circumstances thru entire life
social anxiety entire life
no interest in life anymore
unsuccessful
current stress has become worse
already past mid 50s and struggling to make ends meet with current economy
work stress
no one to talk to that I can trust
failed at life

*recently was told by a random person that read my eyes and told me that I need to keep going. The man was 94 very successful and was able to read me like a book without me having to say a word. This was from a completely random person while I was on duty, I never mentioned anything and he just told me that I need to keep going. My reply was life always seems to shut its doors on me.

I am tired very tired of this seemingly never ending cycle of stress, failure, loneliness, heart break and now internal physical health issues. The time I did have health care few years back I never went to see a doctor but knew something was wrong with my health. I"ve done plenty of research and now have a good idea what it is.

I havent lit a cigarette in bout 30yrs and just started up again few days ago, it helps take the edge off but the problems and issues still remain. It helps tho to ease me, I am not into drugs or alcohol never appealed to me and never will. I've been carrying this weight of stress ever since my life took an unavoidable turn when I was 15. I've tried to focus on the positive since then but the battle to keep moving forward has only become more difficult overtime.

 

[MentalFuneral]

I don't belong in this world and nobody gives a fuck about me