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Meow
- Jan 14, 2020
- 109
I'm a human being as well, I do have boundaries as well and everyone just keeps crossing them over and over and over again. I'm literally yelling for months now that I can not do this anymore. But they just don't listen. They keep going and going and pushing and pushing.
Wednesday I broke down. I'm exhausted and my body and mind are not doing a thing anymore. All I can do is lay in bed, not being able to do a damn thing anymore and still those people expect me to keep going. I CAN'T ANYMORE. And because of that I will probably be send away soon from the place I'm at now and that means I'll be homeless.
Only a few more weeks I keep trying to tell myself. My SN will hopefully arrive in a few weeks. I have most of the other things ready and prepared. A few more weeks of surviving this hell. I can not wait to leave, I'm so ready for it. I'm so ready. My wish to die is so strong and I really need to fight myself a lot to not do anything impulsive and dumb. Just wait for the SN and go peacefully. But it's so hard to wait atm ugh.
Wednesday I broke down. I'm exhausted and my body and mind are not doing a thing anymore. All I can do is lay in bed, not being able to do a damn thing anymore and still those people expect me to keep going. I CAN'T ANYMORE. And because of that I will probably be send away soon from the place I'm at now and that means I'll be homeless.
Only a few more weeks I keep trying to tell myself. My SN will hopefully arrive in a few weeks. I have most of the other things ready and prepared. A few more weeks of surviving this hell. I can not wait to leave, I'm so ready for it. I'm so ready. My wish to die is so strong and I really need to fight myself a lot to not do anything impulsive and dumb. Just wait for the SN and go peacefully. But it's so hard to wait atm ugh.