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- Aug 18, 2020
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Today I have read a text of someone who said DFW has not seen meaning in his life otherwise he would not have ctb. I am not fully in favor of this idea or concept of seeing no meaning in life in relation to suicide.
Another better example (when we consider the opposite statement): I think many people live their life without seeing a meaning in life. I think if you ask some average people on the street most answers won't be very intricate. I think there are a lot of people out there who think life has no meaning and these people don't commit suicide. If you are not suffering a lot many don't question being alive. Some find life boring with the same daily routines. (damn I envy this feeling. I worry so much everyday I just wished I had the same reassurance in my abilities as many neurotypicals. I am facing really existential sorrows and problems. Most people don't experience them as intensively and over a long time like me.)
I think you don't really need a meaning in life in order to stay alive. Especially if you are not suffering a lot many don't mind that. This is at least my personal opinion.
To DFW. I think some people even commit suicide despite the fact they see meaning in life. Maybe it is important to differentiate between meaning of your specific life or in a general sense about life. But for me I don't think that this must necessarily be an opposition. When my pain was unbearable the suffering was just overwhelming. I suffered extremely. Like I saw in some way meaning in my life because I have good friends who support me a lot. And I knew that there is the potential that things can improve. I knew this severe psychosomatic pain would likely not last forever. But it was on a pain scale such extreme that I had the feeling I had to ctb back then no matter what. I absolutely could not cope with this insane pain. I did not really care about whether my life had meaning or not. I just had the urge to exit this extreme torture.
My time in the psychiatry at least alleviated the urge of acting on this extreme acute suicidality a little bit.
What are your thoughts on that? Maybe it depends on how we define these terms.
I could be wrong with these considerations.
Another better example (when we consider the opposite statement): I think many people live their life without seeing a meaning in life. I think if you ask some average people on the street most answers won't be very intricate. I think there are a lot of people out there who think life has no meaning and these people don't commit suicide. If you are not suffering a lot many don't question being alive. Some find life boring with the same daily routines. (damn I envy this feeling. I worry so much everyday I just wished I had the same reassurance in my abilities as many neurotypicals. I am facing really existential sorrows and problems. Most people don't experience them as intensively and over a long time like me.)
I think you don't really need a meaning in life in order to stay alive. Especially if you are not suffering a lot many don't mind that. This is at least my personal opinion.
To DFW. I think some people even commit suicide despite the fact they see meaning in life. Maybe it is important to differentiate between meaning of your specific life or in a general sense about life. But for me I don't think that this must necessarily be an opposition. When my pain was unbearable the suffering was just overwhelming. I suffered extremely. Like I saw in some way meaning in my life because I have good friends who support me a lot. And I knew that there is the potential that things can improve. I knew this severe psychosomatic pain would likely not last forever. But it was on a pain scale such extreme that I had the feeling I had to ctb back then no matter what. I absolutely could not cope with this insane pain. I did not really care about whether my life had meaning or not. I just had the urge to exit this extreme torture.
My time in the psychiatry at least alleviated the urge of acting on this extreme acute suicidality a little bit.
What are your thoughts on that? Maybe it depends on how we define these terms.
I could be wrong with these considerations.
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