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Sorry to take the easy way out
- May 27, 2023
- 18
This perfectly applies to me, plus heroin addiction at 14 to deal with my mental anguish. Heroin is the only thing that gives me relief and a temporary will to keep on living.Usually childhood abuse. Bullying. Sexual assaults. Mental illness. Unbearable or untreatable physical illness. Existential crisis.
The list goes on, but these are the main ones.
My reasons are dreadful childhood abuse. Bullied all through school. Mentally ill since age 7. Deep existential crisis.
I could go on but I won't.
I have many reasons to want to put myself out of my misery.
Because different people have different reasons to choose suicide. I was curious to hear from people what their reasons were.If you need to ask that question, why are you on this forum ?
I can only speak for myself, everyone has their reasons.I'd like to hear your honest thoughts to this question.
this world we find ourselves in....., if you have the ability to see it for what it is..., like you have no fear, greed, greed conditioning, accumulation of stuff, "respect', etc, ..., the world would look very different. although not discounting the base human condition...., we may feel one way from time to time. what we are feeling, thinking, or seeing the world or the moods we are in may not feel real tomorrow. ...,Because the act of 'living' isn't always an easy thing. We are born into a world we need to adapt to. Often in unfair conditions. As humans, we didn't only destroy the earth but ourselves. Humanity will certainly be the death of mankind.
Anyways, many factors play into this dissatisfaction of our own life. Some are resolvable and others aren't.
Point is, that humans can only carry so much. Eventually, they will break. You can get back up, alone or with help but not forever.
Due to different reasons people stop seeing the point in living. Sadly, there is no exit option for those people. So they have to resort to suicide to finally free themselves of their suffering, once and for all.
Besides everything, I know you did not just compare Jesus and Buddha to Tupacthis world we find ourselves in....., if you have the ability to see it for what it is..., like you have no fear, greed, greed conditioning, accumulation of stuff, "respect', etc, ..., the world would look very different. although not discounting the base human condition...., we may feel one way from time to time. what we are feeling, thinking, or seeing the world or the moods we are in may not feel real tomorrow. ...,
all i know, life is all such a a dream. it's unreal. of course idiots believe it's real. that's why no real geniuses ever lived past 40. they all die in their 30s. Jesus, tupac, buddha, etc.
Jesus, tupac, buddha, etc that was sad lolthis world we find ourselves in....., if you have the ability to see it for what it is..., like you have no fear, greed, greed conditioning, accumulation of stuff, "respect', etc, ..., the world would look very different. although not discounting the base human condition...., we may feel one way from time to time. what we are feeling, thinking, or seeing the world or the moods we are in may not feel real tomorrow. ...,
all i know, life is all such a a dream. it's unreal. of course idiots believe it's real. that's why no real geniuses ever lived past 40. they all die in their 30s. Jesus, tupac, buddha, etc.
reality/life only makes sense from wherever you are standing. if you are well adjusted... had a nice community, where going to school, getting good job, marry maryjane across the street, make babies, lots of money, climb the corporate ladder..., be recognised at the local church as a model citizen, etc. if that is how you got raised and it made sense or makes sense to you...., LUCKY YOU. VERY LUCKY. ..if, you found yourself with some cognitive/physical defects..., aha..., or too intelligent for life(oh, being intelligent is also a defect, for those who don't know).Because- for whatever reason- life had become intolerable for that person. They either couldn't see a way out of their situation- asides from ending it. Or- they perhaps knew of alternatives but those alternatives seemed too difficult to achieve- or- the end result didn't seem worth it.
I'm curious about your tag- under your username: 'Sorry to take the easy way out.' Do you consider suicide the 'easy way out'? I'm curious as to whether you have seriously considered it? It's pretty frightening when you come down to the nuts and bolts of doing it. I can't deny that perhaps it does seem like 'the easy way out' as a concept sometimes. I certainly don't want to face the rest of my life. I don't want to suffer.
The act of doing it though- it's risky. Plus- the mental gymnastics you have to go through to do it aren't easy. Asides from the very strong instinct to survive- most of us are taught that suicide is wrong- even sinful. There's that to get over. Plus- a lot of people worry immensely about the impact it might have on those left behind.
I think it depends largely on what you're hanging on for- I don't have dependants- no children, no partner, only distant friends and family now. The one person I know it would deeply upset- my Dad- I'm holding on for for now. So- should we feel obliged to keep going with our lives? No matter what? Who are we obliged to? God? Our parents? Our families and friends? Society at large? Should we feel obligated to live? No matter what kind of life we have?