Lxions
they/he
- Apr 6, 2023
- 78
My mother has a deep hatred and resentment for me.
She just threatened to beat me to death.
My entire life my mother has hated my guts. She's a very misogynistic woman with extreme jealousy issues. She has bipolar depression, which she passed down to me. It has been a constant battle with my mother my entire life, nothing has ever been good enough for her. From the way I look, my hair, my voice, even the way I stand. As a person, I've never reached her expectations.
It got especially bad once my mental issues started surfacing. I went from the "golden child" to the embarrassment, she didn't want anyone to even look at me. She cut off "nosy" family members from my father's side because she doesn't want people seeing the stuff she does behind closed doors. She's a hateful person and respects nobody.
I have been beat, ridiculed, my stuff was stolen from me, and my door taken off the hinges. She's destroyed my stuff, and completely cleared out my room when I was 13. Forcing me to sleep on the floor, no blankets, no mattress, nothing. That went on for a whole year. She would flush my medication, and then tell the medical professionals that I did; purposely putting me in hospitals so she can "have a break". She forced me into an eating disorder when I was only 7 years old.
I used to believe that I deserve this treatment, part of me still does, but it has set me up for failure. I have no confidence, and I'm constantly exhausted.
I do fully believe my mother will beat me to death if she gets upset enough.
Why do parents have children that they don't want? I didn't ask to be born, so why does she hate me so much.
She just threatened to beat me to death.
My entire life my mother has hated my guts. She's a very misogynistic woman with extreme jealousy issues. She has bipolar depression, which she passed down to me. It has been a constant battle with my mother my entire life, nothing has ever been good enough for her. From the way I look, my hair, my voice, even the way I stand. As a person, I've never reached her expectations.
It got especially bad once my mental issues started surfacing. I went from the "golden child" to the embarrassment, she didn't want anyone to even look at me. She cut off "nosy" family members from my father's side because she doesn't want people seeing the stuff she does behind closed doors. She's a hateful person and respects nobody.
I have been beat, ridiculed, my stuff was stolen from me, and my door taken off the hinges. She's destroyed my stuff, and completely cleared out my room when I was 13. Forcing me to sleep on the floor, no blankets, no mattress, nothing. That went on for a whole year. She would flush my medication, and then tell the medical professionals that I did; purposely putting me in hospitals so she can "have a break". She forced me into an eating disorder when I was only 7 years old.
I used to believe that I deserve this treatment, part of me still does, but it has set me up for failure. I have no confidence, and I'm constantly exhausted.
I do fully believe my mother will beat me to death if she gets upset enough.
Why do parents have children that they don't want? I didn't ask to be born, so why does she hate me so much.
