Why do I keep worrying?

[NeverEndingPain]

Why am I thinking about what will happen after CTB? How long I will be left until found? How will they get the door open if I'm hanging on the other side and blocking the door? What I'm going to look like dead? Why am I scared of being put in a morgue or cremated? Why am thinking about all this stuff
I just want and end to my suffering and all these thoughts just make me more scared. Can anyone offer some words to help me not worry like this?

 

[Euthanza]

It's part of well planning imho. Though some may have tendency to overthink about every single detail that relates to anxiety or OCD. I think it's better to write it down so you can review what's necessary and not.

 

[emgrl]

You're not alone, I feel the same way you do. I hope it's as comforting for you, as it is for me, that we Aren't alone. We will be ok, peace is what we all deserve, no matter how we each achieve it.

 

[deathisnear]

I think so many can relate to this. The important thing to remember is that after we CTB. none of those worries matter. We will be gone and at peace. It's a tough mindset to get into, pushing over all those fears and focusing on the peace. I hope to be able to do that myself one day.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

You're not alone, I feel the same way you do. I hope it's as comforting for you, as it is for me, that we Aren't alone. We will be ok, peace is what we all deserve, no matter how we each achieve it.

Thank you for this reply. I wish I had someone with me to tell me it will be ok.
I'm scared and alone

I think so many can relate to this. The important thing to remember is that after we CTB. none of those worries matter. We will be gone and at peace. It's a tough mindset to get into, pushing over all those fears and focusing on the peace. I hope to be able to do that myself one day.

Thank you for your reply. It means a lot to me

It's part of well planning imho. Though some may have tendency to overthink about every single detail that relates to anxiety or OCD. I think it's better to write it down so you can review what's necessary and not.

That definitely makes sense and I have both ocd and anxiety. I've visualized it over and over in my head.

 

[jodes2]

Your worries sound very OCD-like to me so maybe you can read up on general OCD coping strategies? Edit: sorry I just read that you said you do have OCD so probably unhelpful advice as you've heard it all before

 

[emgrl]

Thank you for this reply. I wish I had someone with me to tell me it will be ok.
I'm scared and alone

Thank you for your reply. It means a lot to me

That definitely makes sense and I have both ocd and anxiety. I've visualized it over and over in my head.

I know, it would be so much easier if we weren't so isolated… we do have here, though, which helps a bit. If you ever need anything, you can always PM me

 

[tiny_dancer]

I think those thoughts are only natural and it shows that you are not being impulsive. The brain likes to go to all sorts of places and it's programmed to worry, even about things we can't control or the thoughts make us feel like crap. It's a hard thing to grasp, that those things won't matter after CTB. You aren't alone in this.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Your worries sound very OCD-like to me so maybe you can read up on general OCD coping strategies? Edit: sorry I just read that you said you do have OCD so probably unhelpful advice as you've heard it all before

I still appreciate you taking the time to reply to try to help. Thank you

I think those thoughts are only natural and it shows that you are not being impulsive. The brain likes to go to all sorts of places and it's programmed to worry, even about things we can't control or the thoughts make us feel like crap. It's a hard thing to grasp, that those things won't matter after CTB. You aren't alone in this.

Thank you for helping me not feel alone.

 

[y'ffre]

There is a paradox here. Those thoughts can come to anyone's mind me included. Right now I can see in my mind's eye every scenario after my death. But why those thoughts don't scare me but scare you? I think I am not scared because I am not bothered I am not reacting to them but you are bothered and you are reacting to them.
Reacting to thoughts (especially negatively) makes them stronger and stronger.
Shortly If you want them to go they won't go. Sadly :(

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally believe that when we die, we cease to exist and that is it for us, we are gone. There is simply nothing, it's just like how before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. Death is the end to all suffering and whatever happens to our body and how we look after we die is none of our concern as we simply wont be there to see it or feel it. All these worries belong to the living and not the dead.

 

[hamvil]

Why am I thinking about what will happen after CTB? How long I will be left until found? How will they get the door open if I'm hanging on the other side and blocking the door? What I'm going to look like dead? Why am I scared of being put in a morgue or cremated? Why am thinking about all this stuff
I just want and end to my suffering and all these thoughts just make me more scared. Can anyone offer some words to help me not worry like this?

I think that in a way or another we worry about the rest of the world. I am nobody to the world and I would like to leave in the same way, without bothering anybody and with as little troubles for everybody as possible. My wife is the only one that will cry but I find comforting the fact that she will have no economical problems. If I do it in a hotel I tell myself that people die in hotel all the time due to natural cause as well. I may not be pretty but it should not be too much of an incovenience.

 

[takemenowpls]

It's normal to feel this way and worry about all these things. Tells me one thing, you are a good person, Selfless.

 

[akana]

because the knowledge that we deserve better and are left unheard is keeping us alive. nothing wrong w ur thoughts. im going through the same :(