Venting Why do I depend on others?

[darkrage2]

I woke up with a heavy heart today with a severe pain in my heart. Why? Just because I got affected by what a person said, do I ruin lives? Can I be the person whom every hates I can never be happy with myself. I hate myself and ruin everything around me. I struggle to move on I keep on a hanging to a place or a person until they let go of me I don't have the ability to leave. I am happy sometimes but inside my mind is eating me I remember the times that I had with that person and how good it was and how I was just a burden to them just a mere leech keeping them from rising. I want to believe that I'm not bad but I can't I don't have the confidence to believe in myself and I'm just struggling with every fucking relationship that I have. I wanna talk to them ABT why they did this to me why they hurt me so badly why would they hurt me again and again and treat me like shit. They would say that I mean everything to them and only to see that I don't even get invited to anything. Why? Why was I always overlooked. Am I too boring ? Was I too much of a heavy weight? I just wonder if I did something different would it have been different and I would've been happy?

 

[fleetingnight]

I think it's human nature, as much as it sucks. For early humans, it was literally impossible to survive without help, so it's in our DNA. We can't really blame ourselves for it.

I'm so sorry people treat you like that and exclude you, that's terrible. It doesn't always mean you did something wrong, sometimes there's no reason and people are just cruel.