Why did he save me? (Fentanyl OD)

[PongoHangs]

I mentioned a man in a past vent post, I named him "Cooper" to respect his privacy. Not that it matters at all, he's spending most of the rest of his life in prison. Anyway, In the week I was away from home and with him I overdosed. We were both in his Rental car which he claims he has because he lost his actual car, but that's bullshit. He owns a rental because he does tons of illegal shit. So we were both sitting in the car, and he pulls out a bag of what I think were imitation perk thirties infused with Fentanyl or blues. Though the pills were in a baggy of Fentanyl powder. He had me counting the pills for him, and while I was counting them he stepped out of the car. So I took my chance, I put my fingers in the bag and dusted them with Fentanyl powder, then I licked them. He came back and noticed a difference in behavior, I told him what I had done but since I wasn't freaking out about it he thought I would be fine. At this point, I wasn't sure if it would work, because I wasn't well introduced to Fentanyl but within 5 minutes of him re-entering the car I was out, unconscious. I overdosed, and he tried reviving me once he noticed me turning pale as the life left my body because I was no longer breathing. Nothing he trying works, and he's got a few minutes max before it's too late. So he pulls out a Narcan and that works. He saved my life, and when I woke back up I barely remembered doing any of it but my memories have gotten a little more clear since. For a few days after the overdose I was nauseous, I couldn't even stomach water. I would vomit anything put into my system. So, Cooper, had me smoke a Perk to "help me out" Honestly he just wanted me to stop throwing up so we could have sex. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him for saving me, the least he could've done is let it happen. After everything he's put me through maybe I could've forgiven him if he had just let me die. Because it was such a peaceful, and relaxing way to CTB. I felt my breathing get easier, and everything became really slow, I wish I could get my hands on more Fentanyl.

 

[Holu]

I mentioned a man in a past vent post, I named him "Cooper" to respect his privacy. Not that it matters at all, he's spending most of the rest of his life in prison. Anyway, In the week I was away from home and with him I overdosed. We were both in his Rental car which he claims he has because he lost his actual car, but that's bullshit. He owns a rental because he does tons of illegal shit. So we were both sitting in the car, and he pulls out a bag of what I think were imitation perk thirties infused with Fentanyl or blues. Though the pills were in a baggy of Fentanyl powder. He had me counting the pills for him, and while I was counting them he stepped out of the car. So I took my chance, I put my fingers in the bag and dusted them with Fentanyl powder, then I licked them. He came back and noticed a difference in behavior, I told him what I had done but since I wasn't freaking out about it he thought I would be fine. At this point, I wasn't sure if it would work, because I wasn't well introduced to Fentanyl but within 5 minutes of him re-entering the car I was out, unconscious. I overdosed, and he tried reviving me once he noticed me turning pale as the life left my body because I was no longer breathing. Nothing he trying works, and he's got a few minutes max before it's too late. So he pulls out a Narcan and that works. He saved my life, and when I woke back up I barely remembered doing any of it but my memories have gotten a little more clear since. For a few days after the overdose I was nauseous, I couldn't even stomach water. I would vomit anything put into my system. So, Cooper, had me smoke a Perk to "help me out" Honestly he just wanted me to stop throwing up so we could have sex. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive him for saving me, the least he could've done is let it happen. After everything he's put me through maybe I could've forgiven him if he had just let me die. Because it was such a peaceful, and relaxing way to CTB. I felt my breathing get easier, and everything became really slow, I wish I could get my hands on more Fentanyl.

I apologize for not being familiar with the previous post however if the intention of this post is to say, "fuck him for saving me" then by all means FUCK YOU COOPER. That being said if you want a couple of possible reasons as to why he saved you I'd say,
1. Most people don't want to see someone die
2. You mentioned sex as a possible motive
3. You doing illegal drugs in his car and dying in it convicts him

Regardless of why I'm sorry your exit was cut short. So fuck you Cooper. Rot you fucking bastard

 

[MidnightDream]

I can understand your frustration, but if he hadn't saved you, considering he was there as a witness and they were also his drugs, he would have been held responsible for your death. Unfortunately, attempting ctb around anyone is usually a bad idea, since it will almost always result in you being saved.