Overthinking is the bane of my existence, I have to plan every single step and run the scenario in my head countless times, considering all possible outcomes and consequences. Most of the time I come to a conclusion that something will surely go wrong therefore it's not even worth trying... over and over and over... it's not just suicide it's literally EVERYTHING, like I'm fucking paralyzed.
"Normal" people simply do stuff, they're willing to take the risk. If it goes wrong they just wing it... IDK, I wish I could turn off my brain and be more spontaneous.