Shinkansen
life is pain
- Jul 14, 2020
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List of people who died by hanging - Wikipedia
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it's by far the most used method, and is performed by people of all kinds: men, women, children, adults, rich, poor, of all nationalities and historical periods.
it really seems like the easiest way to die.
even in the videos it seems extremely easy: people tie the rope around their neck and let themselves go, and the force of gravity does the rest.
but then why do I have so many doubts?
I chose the full suspension which is the safest hanging method, I have found a perfect place to do it without being disturbed by anyone, I have the best rope I've found in a naval store, and I can make all the knots I need with my eyes closed.
yet, despite all this, I am still afraid that something will go wrong, that because of some divine intervention I will remain alive.
I'm afraid that losing consciousness is not enough to die, and my eyes reopen in this world of shit, despite having all the information, I'm still full of doubts.
I really want to leave this world, but I'm afraid this shitty life won't let me.