Venting why can’t i make up my mind?

[willitpass]

i know i want to die, that's not the problem. but for whatever reason my mind isn't deciding to do it anytime soon. every day is more and more insufferable why don't i just fucking do it. i've had three previous serious attempts so i know how it feels to be ready and i'm not. why can't i just be ready? fuck

 

[jodes2]

Being in limbo sucks, I'm so sorry

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It's hard for your cerebral cortex to override your amygdala. It's normal to have an aversion to your death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide is not straightforward, and I get that it can certainly be tiring feeling trapped in this life. But after all, only you know when the time is right for you to leave this world.

 

[Janeツ]

What do you think of the idea to take your antidepressant for 2-3 weeks just to cause another low? I want to to that before I cbt to make sure that I won't chicken out. In case you take some just stop taking them for the same effect.

 

[NeverEndingPain]

i know i want to die, that's not the problem. but for whatever reason my mind isn't deciding to do it anytime soon. every day is more and more insufferable why don't i just fucking do it. i've had three previous serious attempts so i know how it feels to be ready and i'm not. why can't i just be ready? fuck

I am the same way. Can I ask what method you are choosing?

 

[willitpass]

I am the same way. Can I ask what method you are choosing?

full suspension hanging

 

[Lonerzepam]

It's hard for your cerebral cortex to override your amygdala. It's normal to have an aversion to your death.

Is this really how SI works from a neurological perspective?

i know i want to die, that's not the problem. but for whatever reason my mind isn't deciding to do it anytime soon. every day is more and more insufferable why don't i just fucking do it. i've had three previous serious attempts so i know how it feels to be ready and i'm not. why can't i just be ready? fuck

I feel the same unfortunetly

 

[eldiablo666]

It's because living things like to live in the end.
Even though you truly want it all to end.
Yes it's confusing.

 

[Ineedtodie]

I' m right where you are, also with full suspension. I don't know what I ' m waiting for. I think I have this relentless ineria keeping me around. Also hanging is brutal an lonely.