Why can’t I just be normal?

[lonleycrowdedwest]

Why can't I just be happy and achieve what I want for myself. Why do I have to live like this. It's fucking terrible. I can't interact and live a normal life like everyone else. I'm such a weirdo. I'm afraid to even leave my room. I've been to like 4 psychiatrists and a bunch of therapists and it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do besides cbt. I've dropped out of school and I have a supportive family but there is no positive future for me. It's going to just be struggling alone for decades. I can't even deal with another week. Fuck

 

[Crazy4u]

hi there,

don't be hard on yourself. the normies aren't exactly normal. Some of them are fake.

Going back to your life, what are the main things that bother you?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are going through this. I know that when things seem hopeless it can be dreadful. I understand that it can be unbearable living a life that you hate. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[whatevs]

Yeah, I also have a supportive family and not much else. It isn't enough when you are chronically ill, be it mentally or physically...

One thing that has helped me with killing time is learning to code. I will release a little mobile game in less than a year. This is certainly a hobby or profession suited for weirdos. But I'm still depressed and frustrated.

 

[Rabhen]

Why can't I just be happy and achieve what I want for myself. Why do I have to live like this. It's fucking terrible. I can't interact and live a normal life like everyone else. I'm such a weirdo. I'm afraid to even leave my room. I've been to like 4 psychiatrists and a bunch of therapists and it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do besides cbt. I've dropped out of school and I have a supportive family but there is no positive future for me. It's going to just be struggling alone for decades. I can't even deal with another week. Fuck

Okay, so first, describe for me what is normal.
Frankly, if others who insist I am not normal are what is considered normal, I don't want to be normal.
I would rather have someone like you as a friend than one of those you call 'normal'. At least you fucking say it how you feel it.
I am not normal and I no longer want to be. I am very weird, strange, odd, different. So called 'normal' people are very boring, are perceived as superior when they are not and usually end up taking some of our personal power away due to our own false perception of their superiority and our own desire to be 'normal' like others.
If Ozzy Osborn was 'normal' he never would have sold millions of records. He may not have the best voice or the greatest vocal range, but the man has sold millions and everyone has heard of him.
I used to always say I was refusing to go to heaven because all the cool and fun people were going to be in hell where the party was, so that is where I was going. Another way to put that is I don't want to be normal. I like who I am, how I am, how I think. I am a very cool and fun person with greatly diverse interests. I, nor my life has never been boring, or normal or bland.
Yep, it hurts that others don't like me, accept me as who and how I am.
I personally cannot understand the concepts of a happy family life, or caring parents, or even supportive parents and without those, I cannot bond with others who have had those experiences and concepts because they are foreign to me, so trying to get me to behave as if I do understand these things is like trying to get an Indigenous Inuit from the Alaska bush to understand and follow a vegan or even a vegetarian diet while living in the Alaska bush. Not going to happened, at least and not have the Eskimo survive for they will surely starve to death as a plant based diet in the Alaska bush is simply NOT possible. The same would be true if you were to take a die hard vegan and throw them into the Alaska bush, they could not understand how to or even be able to feed themselves.
So, what is normal, the Inuit diet or the Vegan diet? To the person raised all their life as vegan, the vegan diet is normal and the Eskimo is a horrid person who insists on eating poor helpless animals that are causing global warming to raise. To the Inuit, the vegan is crazy, you cannot eat nothing but plants and survive, with only two months maybe three of summer growing, 8 months or more of snow cover and below freezing temps topped with the outrageous pricing to get non Alaska food items to Alaska, the Inuit MUST eat meat to survive. So, what is normal?
YOU, are normal and stop thinking you are not. Normal is a relative term. You are your own normal and that is so okay.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

hi there,

don't be hard on yourself. the normies aren't exactly normal. Some of them are fake.

Going back to your life, what are the main things that bother you?

Okay, so first, describe for me what is normal.
Frankly, if others who insist I am not normal are what is considered normal, I don't want to be normal.
I would rather have someone like you as a friend than one of those you call 'normal'. At least you fucking say it how you feel it.
I am not normal and I no longer want to be. I am very weird, strange, odd, different. So called 'normal' people are very boring, are perceived as superior when they are not and usually end up taking some of our personal power away due to our own false perception of their superiority and our own desire to be 'normal' like others.
If Ozzy Osborn was 'normal' he never would have sold millions of records. He may not have the best voice or the greatest vocal range, but the man has sold millions and everyone has heard of him.
I used to always say I was refusing to go to heaven because all the cool and fun people were going to be in hell where the party was, so that is where I was going. Another way to put that is I don't want to be normal. I like who I am, how I am, how I think. I am a very cool and fun person with greatly diverse interests. I, nor my life has never been boring, or normal or bland.
Yep, it hurts that others don't like me, accept me as who and how I am.
I personally cannot understand the concepts of a happy family life, or caring parents, or even supportive parents and without those, I cannot bond with others who have had those experiences and concepts because they are foreign to me, so trying to get me to behave as if I do understand these things is like trying to get an Indigenous Inuit from the Alaska bush to understand and follow a vegan or even a vegetarian diet while living in the Alaska bush. Not going to happened, at least and not have the Eskimo survive for they will surely starve to death as a plant based diet in the Alaska bush is simply NOT possible. The same would be true if you were to take a die hard vegan and throw them into the Alaska bush, they could not understand how to or even be able to feed themselves.
So, what is normal, the Inuit diet or the Vegan diet? To the person raised all their life as vegan, the vegan diet is normal and the Eskimo is a horrid person who insists on eating poor helpless animals that are causing global warming to raise. To the Inuit, the vegan is crazy, you cannot eat nothing but plants and survive, with only two months maybe three of summer growing, 8 months or more of snow cover and below freezing temps topped with the outrageous pricing to get non Alaska food items to Alaska, the Inuit MUST eat meat to survive. So, what is normal?
YOU, are normal and stop thinking you are not. Normal is a relative term. You are your own normal and that is so okay.

Im just fucked. I'm paranoid and everyone who knows me well thinks ima weirdo and keeps their distance. I think its time.

 

[Rabhen]

Im just fucked. I'm paranoid and everyone who knows me well thinks ima weirdo and keeps their distance. I think its time.

yep, I'm a pariah too. I have actually seen people see me coming and blatantly and obviously turn, pretend not to see me and change their direction to avoid me. It is okay to be a weirdo. I'm a hermaphrodite, cannot get any weirder than that. Males transitioning to female, females transitioning to males, gay men, gay women, polyamorous people, even beastiality are better accepted than chicks with dicks, especially those born that way, we are the REAL weirdos.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

yep, I'm a pariah too. I have actually seen people see me coming and blatantly and obviously turn, pretend not to see me and change their direction to avoid me. It is okay to be a weirdo. I'm a hermaphrodite, cannot get any weirder than that. Males transitioning to female, females transitioning to males, gay men, gay women, polyamorous people, even beastiality are better accepted than chicks with dicks, especially those born that way, we are the REAL weirdos.

I dont think thats rlly the case. No one iknow considers hermaphditic people worse than anyone else. if anything the only problems you would have are sexual relationships, ad tons of people have weird genitals. People who love you will easily get over that.

 

[Rabhen]

I dont think thats rlly the case. No one iknow considers hermaphditic people worse than anyone else. if anything the only problems you would have are sexual relationships, ad tons of people have weird genitals. People who love you will easily get over that.

Gay men don't like me, gay women consider me a man, straight people consider me a disgusting freak. The worst is the LBGTQ community. Unless I get physically involved with a straight, they think of me as a woman because that is how I present, but I can still hear what they say about the lbgtq community and especially transitioners of which they automatically lump me into when they find out, and it is mostly not nice. My own lbgtq community considers me nothing more than an ally until they find out, then I get the same prying questions and nasty looks and 'ewws'. Trust me, as open as all of us should be, the lbgtq community is Full of haters. Many hate anyone who will not accept them as they choose to be and feel it appropriate to force others to accept them through legislation or plain reverse discrimination and they hate those of us who they consider are refusing to finish our surgeries, refuse to believe we can truly be born this way, even more than the straights, I have had MORE lbgtq's tell me how rare true hermaphroditism is, and well, if I 'Really' want to stay confused and bipolar, yep, been accused of being bipolar instead of hermaphrodite, by the one of biggest drag queens I have known. Been asked 'are you sure' by more gay men than anyone else.