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Escargot
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- Jun 28, 2024
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I've had multiple attempts to CTB, partial hangings, attempted drowning, self-mutilation. But everytime it seems that some inner part of me refuses to allow me to CTB, despite my intense desires to do so.
Only a few days ago I had a setup ready and tested for a partial hanging in my closet tested and ready to go, but then my friends got in my head and convinced me to tear it down.
On the one hand, I really can't stand being here and desperately want to CTB, but then on the other I get in my own head and can't bring myself to.
Why can I not just be committed to this?
Only a few days ago I had a setup ready and tested for a partial hanging in my closet tested and ready to go, but then my friends got in my head and convinced me to tear it down.
On the one hand, I really can't stand being here and desperately want to CTB, but then on the other I get in my own head and can't bring myself to.
Why can I not just be committed to this?