why are you doing a CTB

[8evergo]

what is the indicator

1. depression for me 30%
2. health for me 60%
3. Sexual desire for death: 0%
4 crappy living conditions 10%

 

[gottablast888]

why would death be sexually desirable lol. i see death as the end of all busted nuts

 

[8evergo]

why would death be sexually desirable lol. i see death as the end of all busted nuts

some people get an erection or orgasm at the time of death has been recorded

 

[FuneralCry]

Because life is horrifying and I dislike existing. I want nothing to do with life and I do not see life as being worth living. I want to escape from suffering that I would experience in the future if I stayed alive. Existing is pointless and unnecessary and I see consciousness as being a form of torture. I simply prefer the sound of non existence to any kind of life, death is the absence of everything and if I am dead then nothing can hurt me.

 

[_smile_]

Because life is horrifying and I dislike existing. I want nothing to do with life and I do not see life as being worth living. I want to escape from suffering that I would experience in the future if I stayed alive. Existing is pointless and unnecessary and I see consciousness as being a form of torture. I simply prefer the sound of non existence to any kind of life, death is the absence of everything and if I am dead then nothing can hurt me.

^^ Yes. Just yes. Amen.

 

[outrider567]

1. Depression From Loss 100% All-Consuming

 

[la fin de tout]

I'm in my mid 30's, never married, no kids, all of my friends have moved away, moved on, banished me, drifted apart, grown up, etc. I endured a devastating break up almost 5 months ago, haven't stayed in contact with her but I know she's found someone much better than me as far as the market goes. All I've been doing with my life is paying off debt which keeps me trapped from going out to socialize and dawdling in my empty home. I'm uncontrollably and constantly thinking about my ex and her new partner, like, I beg and shout at myself to stop thinking about it, a constant flow of a scarcity mindset, abandonment, and self hatred all of my life hasn't helped. I have actively tried to do as much as I can to improve (therapy, antidepressants, daily sunshine and walks, lifting and running at least a mile a day at the gym, self help books, finding hobbies, what have you.) and I still continue to do so until my determined expiration date. I miss having friendships and relationships, it all I valued in life. Now I feel as though I am being tested with this situational solitude, and I'm not passing that test. For some reason CTB seems to be the viable solution to stop my days of literal sobbing and mental self torture.

 

[outatime_85]

My life means and matters to no one, not even myself.

There is nothing going on in my life that has real significance or anything that would not be handled by other family members.

I have no friends. The friends I had in my youth have long since moved on in life.

I have lived a self-imposed, isolated existence for far too long, so I no longer have any social skills that would allow me to make new friends or get ahead in my life.

I do not have the ability to ask for help, even if that help would save my life.

I want to finally be free of the beasts that haunt me on a daily basis, free from the fact that I have no real future and that any future for me is bleak.

I exist on a thread, and that thread, like me, will break one day.

To paraphrase a quote from Friedrich Nietzsche, from "The Twilight of the Idols," "I will die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly." And that time for me is getting close.

 

[Ta555]

some people get an erection or orgasm at the time of death has been recorded

This has nothing to do with sexual desire but because of damage to blood vessels in the body and how that changes and redistributes blood pressure throughout. It's usually mostly seen in hanging.

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

Lack of life skills: 60%
Health: 35%
Shame: 5%

 

[MountainMonkey]

I saved money for years so i could remove myself from society. Then I finally persued my dream of being completely off grid and feral. I left the city, lived in a tent, traveled, and climbed mountains. I cooked over a campfire, bathed in creeks, and loved my life. Then I decided I wanted a sprinter van, so I invested everything in crypto. 35 k down the drain. I refuse to revert back to that miserable life of work and home (aka oversized coffin). Never again joining zombie rat race. I hate being around humans, and I hate being indoors. Im taking this as sign from the universe telling me that it's time.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Financial 100%

 

[brood]

I'm getting older, body is aching and tired, parts don't work quite as they should. If I can't have an acceptable lifestyle then I will not live on.
I'm not quite there yet but I can see the day coming, preparations have been made, I must get this right, only happening once, actually looking forward to taking that last step.

 

[waitingforrest]

To finally get away from the person I hate most. Me.

 

[Bodydysmorphia]

Bodydysmorphia, inferiority complex, depression, sexual orientation

 

[Niirvana]

Depression, anxiety and not being the person I would like to be

 

[alliebear]

Tired of struggling w ed, bipolar and i couldnt function like other human being. What's the point of life? Wakeup everyday, being scared, alone, for years and years and away from mom and dad…. I felt like i don't belong here. Seeing destruction around me, animal and forest gone by days made me even convince to do it. We all suffer, we deserve a peaceful endings;)