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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
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So the PPH says for SN I should do Valium (diazepam, 50x10mg). From my source 20 10 mg pills is 450$

So if I get 60 pills (I will test taking 10) that's 1,350$, but they offer a 30% coupon which brings it down to 945$ for me... Which is not that bad I guess... I have money.

50 pills sounds insane... I did xanax briefly 5 years ago and I remember that taking 2 of those pills would put me to sleep.

Should it really be 50?
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,162
Easiest way to get benzo is to tell your psychiatrist that you are having extremely difficulty sleeping and you've tried everything..so u need sos
But yeah psychiatric medicines are hell costly
One strip of useless sertraline.costed me 10ÂŁ
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
274
Easiest way to get benzo is to tell your psychiatrist that you are having extremely difficulty sleeping and you've tried everything..so u need sos
But yeah psychiatric medicines are hell costly
One strip of useless sertraline.costed me 10ÂŁ
Im not worried about the price tbh... More worried about if its too many pills?
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,162
Im not worried about the price tbh... More worried about if its too many pills?
These pills are not even worth it you know unless you've them in abundance..
Certain meds actually increase suicidal ideation
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
274
These pills are not even worth it you know unless you've them in abundance..
Certain meds actually increase suicidal ideation
Benzos are known for relaxing you and decreasing survival instinct so I'm not sure what you are talking about…
 
unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,554
WTF are these prices !!?? In France, a box of 30 pills costs only 1,27€...! The best way to get benzos is to ask to your psychiatrist and talking about your huge anxiety and your sleeping issues. You don't have to spend 450 dollars... I could be a millionnaire right now if I would have sell all the benzos I took... 450 dollars could be the price of Nembutal, but never for benzos. Your source is just trying to scam you ! But I can understand if it's hard to get in your country. If I go with SN method, I'm planning to take 300mg valium 10 minutes before SN.
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
274
WTF are these prices !!?? In France, a box of 30 pills costs only 1,27€...! The best way to get benzos is to ask to your psychiatrist and talking about your huge anxiety and your sleeping issues. You don't have to spend 450 dollars... I could be a millionnaire right now if I would have sell all the benzos I took... 450 dollars could be the price of Nembutal, but never for benzos. Your source is just trying to scam you ! But I can understand if it's hard to get in your country. If I go with SN method, I'm planning to take 300mg valium 10 minutes before SN.
I can't go to a doctor I have agoraphobia/social anxiety… It's really convenient for me to buy it online.

I don't actually care about the price at all lol. I don't even know why I mentioned it, I guess I was just shocked at first.

I'm only worried about succeeding my CTB attempt… 30 pills still seems like a lot.

I saw on the benzo equivalence chart that 0.5 mg of Xanax is equal to 10 mg of Valium… https://benzo.org.uk/bzequiv

So 30 pills is like 7.5 Xanax pills (2mg each).

I guess that's pretty reasonable? The most Xanax I ever took was 2 pills and it knocked me out pretty soon…
 

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