Venting why am I so unlovable

[shelaysdown]

I've been abused, assaulted, groomed, ignored. Not once have I actually been in a healthy romantic relationship.
I was so close to it this month - I met a person who I think is amazing, and he seemed interested in me, and he was unendingly kind and supportive. And now it's over. It feels like happiness is being snatched away from me just as I was about to finally feel it.
I want to die. There's nothing but heartbreak left for me here. Why am I so easy to abuse, and so hard to love? Why does this keep happening to me? Why is it so hard for me to feel the things that come naturally to others?

 

[Cyagangy]

Its really not your fault friend. Sometimes the world is just plain cruel for no good reason. I really am sorry and I hope you can heal and surround yourself with people that make you feel less alone. Love isn't always an easy thing to feel and I'm no therapist so I can't really tell you how.

 

[sorrynf]

That makes two of us my friend

 

[Morte]

How old are you?

 

[shelaysdown]

How old are you?

18