Venting why am i always an outcast

[dantexxnfrn]

i doubt anyone would notice if i disappeared
when i was in school i had low grades because no one wanted to be my partner in projects so i just wouldn't do the projects

i have no friends irl, just a few online but i doubt they consider me as their friend. im replaceable

everyone gets attention and love
why do i get ignored
i know it's selfish and stupid but i want to be noticed and i want people to look at me and care about me and worry about me

everytime i try to make friens it always ends up with them not liking me anymore
am i that unlikeable? what do others have that i don't? what do i have to do to people just notice and like me?

i just want to be loved
im so tired of feeling this emptiness
i feel so lonely that it's almost like there's a void in my chest and i can feel it physically

 

[Nightingale93]

I hear you. It's such an awful feeling. The toxic positivity thrown around in today's society is just appalling. People shouldn't have to be alone. When you don't get to experience love and intimacy, it completely destroys any hope of wanting to live anymore.
I was thinking maybe I'll try using shrooms or LSD and trip, I've heard certain strains can completely kill your anxiety.