Who's told anybody?

[RacilyDank]

My parents and friends know I'm suicidal - I've only told online friends that I truly plan to ctb - sooner rather than later. My friend keeps getting me gifts and stuff but I don't know if I'll be able to survive for long. At the start I wanted help, but helps let me down time and time again so now I'm just pretending my way through life until I can ctb.

I know what you mean. I've given up on 'help' as it hasn't 'helped'! Only done nothing or made me worse.

I have an appointment with a psych at the end of the month. If I'm still here by then I'll go, but I'll pretend I'm not actively seeking to ctb.

Not wanting to play more pill roulette.

 

[solacely]

Everyone in my life knows since I've had multiple attempts and been in mental hospitals countless times. No one knows my true intent though and no one knows that I have access to guns.

 

[nzdarkshark]

Everyone in my life knows since I've had multiple attempts and been in mental hospitals countless times. No one knows my true intent though and no one knows that I have access to guns.

I wish I had access to guns.

 

[SnowyDreams]

Well I told both my psychiatrist and the therapist I was seeing. I guess they didn't believe it or whatever. The psychiatrist said "oh but you're just like, thinking about it, it's not like you want to do it" and I said I wanted to and she looked at me like if you wanted to you would have done it already? And the therapist heard me saying that I wanted to kill myself several times and that I have urges to do things that could kill me, and that I actually had a plan at that time and why I hadn't tried it yet (I wanted it to really work). She didn't say anything. And then said I should try yoga. So yeah I don't even know why I told them ? I guess I had some hope in the treatment but oh well

 

[Marcos]

Last week I had a nervous breakdown so my family knows it now. I was planning to keep it secret but I could help it. Fortunately, they think that I'm not going to do it because I'm "fine" now.

 

[Roulette]

It's surreal to me that people can tell family/friends. No judgement tho. I couldn't even tell the Doctor about my suicidal thoughts :/

 

[FadedMemory]

My family knows. I feel sorry for them but I didn't choose to be born in a corrupted country in a small town. I haven't told anyone else because no one else cares.

 

[deflagrat]

I have told people in the mental health services around me. They don't really have that much to say about it, and I haven't heard anything like "oh don't do it", it's more like "yes I hear you" but they don't do anything else. Luckily they haven't found about my method so I am good.

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I told someone, even though she reacted to it well part of me thinks it would've been best not to tell her. I just think that if/when I CTB she will feel like it is her fault when it really isn't. No one else even knows I'm depressed yet suicidal. It just feels like I added weight on her shoulders by telling her.