Who's told anybody?

[RacilyDank]

To me, it seems counterintuitive to tell anybody you want to ctb, unless it's a cry for help, in which case you don't really want to. Just seems like a surefire way to fail and/or be locked up in a mental ward.

Personally, many people know that I am depressed and my personal circumstances. I imagine they suspect I may be but I've never openly told them so. Maybe out of embarrassment, or not wanting to be stopped.

Who's told anyone and what is your motivation, if not wanting help? I'm genuinely interested.

 

[Acerg]

Some people want to let others know when they're going so they won't have to wonder what happened to them

 

[Ashpac]

The main people in my life know. They know its going to happen but theyre happy to play along for now until the big day comes. We've had so many discussions, especially me and my father, not so much my mother, but she knows too. Im grateful they are understanding.

 

[Avicii]

To me, it seems counterintuitive to tell anybody you want to ctb, unless it's a cry for help, in which case you don't really want to. Just seems like a surefire way to fail and/or be locked up in a mental ward.

Personally, many people know that I am depressed and my personal circumstances. I imagine they suspect I may be but I've never openly told them so. Maybe out of embarrassment, or not wanting to be stopped.

Who's told anyone and what is your motivation, if not wanting help? I'm genuinely interested.

I've told my mam and she won't let me ctb it's her permission I need to end my misery she knows I have a condition that's fucking killing me everyday causing me utter misery but as long as I'm still alive she's still alive it's pissing me right of!!! If it weren't for her I'd have caught the bus jumped on a train and flew back on an aeroplane!!!!

 

[RacilyDank]

The main people in my life know. They know its going to happen but theyre happy to play along for now until the big day comes. We've had so many discussions, especially me and my father, not so much my mother, but she knows too. Im grateful they are understanding.

And they're not trying to stop you?

I'm practically on suicide watch and I haven't even told anyone I intend to

 

[Smilla]

Two know. My brother from whom I am basically estranged and a close friend.

 

[RacilyDank]

I've told my mam and age won't let me ctb it's her permission I need to end my misery she knows I have a condition that's fucking killing me everyday causing me utter misery but as long as I'm still alive she's still alive it's pissing be right of!!! If it weren't for her I'd have caught the bus jumped on a train and flew back on an aeroplane!!!!

What is your condition? If you don't mind me asking?

 

[Ashpac]

And they're not trying to stop you?

I'm practically on suicide watch and I haven't even told anyone I intend to

They have said they wouldnt want my life either. They feel so sorry for me and what Ive had to go through.

They will both miss me, they just want me happy. Shame I have to die to be happy though but hey, thats life.

 

[RacilyDank]

They have said they wouldnt want my life either. They feel so sorry for me and what Ive had to go through.

They will both miss me, they just want me happy. Shame I have to die to be happy though but hey, thats life.

What have you had to go through? Sorry if that's a personal question.

That's really understanding of them. Nobody would let me if they knew. It's kind of sick really, that they'd want me to suffer instead. But they will never understand.

 

[RacilyDank]

They have said they wouldnt want my life either. They feel so sorry for me and what Ive had to go through.

They will both miss me, they just want me happy. Shame I have to die to be happy though but hey, thats life.

Apologies for being philosophical, I'm not trying to persuade or encourage anybody to die, but you can't be happy dead. Unless you believe in an afterlife. If so, how do you know you'll be happy then?

 

[PatKat]

I only have told people on here.

 

[Ashpac]

What have you had to go through? Sorry if that's a personal question.

That's really understanding of them. Nobody would let me if they knew. It's kind of sick really, that they'd want me to suffer instead. But they will never understand.

I had to have many hours of talks with them to understand. It was not easy.

I remember one time my mam was crying and she hugged me and said if this is what you wanna do then go for it, I dont want you to suffer anymore. That was an emotional moment for me to say the least.

Im keeping it between me and my family. I dont even like them knowing but hey, thats life.

 

[Ashpac]

Apologies for being philosophical, I'm not trying to persuade or encourage anybody to die, but you can't be happy dead. Unless you believe in an afterlife. If so, how do you know you'll be happy then?

Like ive said before ive studied the afterlife for the past 3 years now.

Im comfortable with the research and studies ive looked at. Im confident I know what happens when we die.

Again, I wont bring this up what ive learned, it just turns out to be a long discussion with people agreeing or disagreeing to it.

Im ready to die and very at ease for when I transition.

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[RacilyDank]

Two know. My brother from whom I am basically estranged and a close friend.

And they're not trying to stop you or make you seek help?

 

[Over n' Out]

No. Big error.

 

[RacilyDank]

Like ive said before ive studied the afterlife for the past 3 now.

Im comfortable with the research and studies ive looked at. Im confident I know what happens when we die.

Again, I wont bring this up what ive learned, it just turns out to be a long discussion with people agreeing or disagreeing to it.

Im ready to die and very at ease for when I transition.

Whether I agree or disagree I'm still interested to know what you think the afterlife is

 

[Avicii]

What is your condition? If you don't mind me asking?

Ahh thanks bus prefer to keep on confidential

 

[RacilyDank]

Ahh thanks bus prefer to keep on confidential

No problem. I hope you find the peace you're looking for

 

[Smilla]

And they're not trying to stop you or make you seek help?

Brother has emailed me links to psychiatrists. He knows I have been in treatment before with bad results.


I'm 38 and alone so deep down he knows this is the end, and agreed that my life has been a shitshow of epic proportions for years.

My friend isn't happy about it but I convinced them that it was my right to end my suffering which they also know has been ongoing for years.

Certainly no encouragement from either one—more like a quiet resignation to the fact.

 

[Phro]

Everybody knows I have suicidal ideation. They just don't realize how much planning I'm doing and that I'm not "crying for help."

 

[Clover]

A few people know.
My mental health worker who says she agrees with my plan.
And two friends I trust completely. They are supportive of my decision and have no desire to try and stop me. They are pro ethunaisa and understand my situation and reasons.
There are many others whom I can't tell as they would try to stop me unfortunately however they do know it's a possibility due to a past recent very serious attempt.

 

[Smilla]

A few people know.
My mental health worker who says she agrees with my plan.
And two friends I trust completely. They are supportive of my decision and have no desire to try and stop me. They are pro ethunaisa and understand my situation and reasons.
There are many others whom I can't tell as they would try to stop me unfortunately however they do know it's a possibility due to a past recent very serious attempt.

Rare to find a mental health worker who is so compassionate.

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

I've told my father about wanting to die even asked him when I was freaking out to kill me one time. He always wants to die and he's told me many tines and I expect him to die in a couple years or less which I've told him I accept it that he deserves peace. It would be selfish of me to expect him to live and be miserable just for me,

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I've told everybody. I think they expect it, but just say "please don't" in a low whimper that they really don't mean.

It's really for the best. They know if they told me flat out to go on with it, I'd want to live out of defiance. People know I don't like them.

 

[great-ape99]

I've told my friends and family but it's all good cause I told them that I'm going out in a peaceful manner at the end of my life when I am an old man.

 

[Clover]

I forgot to explain my reasons for telling others.
When I had my first serious attempt my friends were all terrified and really upset as it was a huge shock to them.
I don't want the people I care about to be shocked when I finally CTB I want them to be prepared for it and to understand and know that it had nothing to do with them and that there was nothing they could have done differently.
I like to be honest and real and I hate hiding things from people. I feel a lot more at peace with my decision knowing that those I care about support me and understand why I'm doing what I am.
Those who would insist on helping me don't know and I feel horrible about it like I am betraying them.

 

[RacilyDank]

A few people know.
My mental health worker who says she agrees with my plan.
And two friends I trust completely. They are supportive of my decision and have no desire to try and stop me. They are pro ethunaisa and understand my situation and reasons.
There are many others whom I can't tell as they would try to stop me unfortunately however they do know it's a possibility due to a past recent very serious attempt.

I'm shocked that a mental health worker would support your decision. Not in a bad way.

Normally, because of their profession, they're indoctrinated to believe anyone can get better and its their job to 'save' you.

 

[RacilyDank]

Everybody knows I have suicidal ideation. They just don't realize how much planning I'm doing and that I'm not "crying for help."

Yes. There's a big difference. I think if anyone knew they'd probably brush it off as ideation.

When seeking 'help' for my mental health, I've always expressed my suicidal ideation but denied making any plans. This way they take you seriously but don't try to lock you up.

 

[Smilla]

Yes. There's a big difference. I think if anyone knew they'd probably brush it off as ideation.

When seeking 'help' for my mental health, I've always expressed my suicidal ideation but denied making any plans. This way they take you seriously but don't try to lock you up.

In the US they can't lock you up unless your are in "imminent danger" ie hours or a day or two away from a planned attempt.

 

[nzdarkshark]

My parents and friends know I'm suicidal - I've only told online friends that I truly plan to ctb - sooner rather than later. My friend keeps getting me gifts and stuff but I don't know if I'll be able to survive for long. At the start I wanted help, but helps let me down time and time again so now I'm just pretending my way through life until I can ctb.