A very dear friend so i thort and i love her more than any else in my life. I knew she could return that love as she had a BF . But i understood that i knew we could never be lovers so we became good friends well so i thort . After 7 years of friendship she just stop talking to me no nothing i try to txt her no good i wrote her letters still nothing and then try to ring her but no she gone with out a word saying why . She just stop i know she still about use to follow her on FB but she just blocked me on they so i could not reply. I just got the felling i had bin use and when she had enuf of me she just dump me . I thort when i first saw her she was different from the rest of the folks but sum how she trick and just use me . So to hell with people to hell with the lot of them never ever going to bother to find that special sum one they only end up stabbing you in the back .
I've been in love with one of friends from high school for so long. And after expressing to her how I felt I thought we'd finally start dating. But it's just been this mess of complications and confusions. Been spending the last 9 months trying to show her how much i truly care for her while my friends have told me time and time again that I'm mental for devoting so much time to a girl I'm not actually dating. Tons of dates, money spent on her, gifts, etc. In hopes that we'd move from this weird gray area to dating. When in reality a lot of the shit ive been doing has simply been disregarded by her. Snapping out of this dumb spell was simply the final breaking point. Being let down by this girl that I thought I had nurtured a strong relationship with over these last 9 yrs (we've known each other for so long) just to see it go to shit just like many other relationships I've had with many other girls, friends and families was definitely the breaking point for me.
Everybody around me, there never was a sage that crossed paths with me in order to help me navigate safely through hell. Now the damage is done & irreversible, just letting time go by until that moment where I end this misery.
Almost everyone in my life, honestly. But the main people that are the main factor for why I'm so fucked upand why I will be ctbing are my family.
I think that's the first thing that hits us as children. Our parents, our siblings, our family. Those are the first people to let us down during such a crucial time for us. Stability along with consistency is so fundamental for growth, and when you lack that, the rest kind of goes downhill.
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