Sluggish_Slump
Specialist
- Mar 29, 2023
- 300
trigger warning : defecation , urination
really sorry for this post but it's a topic that has been occupying my mind quite a lot lately.
ngl I have a fear of leaving a gross body behind soaked in my own feces because of uncontrollable urination and defecation. When my dog was about to die he lost all his control over his own bowels , and we had to wipe him clean and put him on a towel and switch it every time it got dirty. And then he just died of a heart attack 2 days later.
I know it doesn't matter how my rotten body I'll leave behind will look like but I'm contemplating on fasting for 48 hours before I attempt to CTB, and probably cover my head with a hoodie, to make the scene less traumatic for my family.
this video in particular has made me think how I want my body to look like when I am hanged :
sorry if it's inappropriate , I just don't have anywhere else to discuss about it. and English is not my first language so sorry for any grammar / spelling mistakes.
really sorry for this post but it's a topic that has been occupying my mind quite a lot lately.
ngl I have a fear of leaving a gross body behind soaked in my own feces because of uncontrollable urination and defecation. When my dog was about to die he lost all his control over his own bowels , and we had to wipe him clean and put him on a towel and switch it every time it got dirty. And then he just died of a heart attack 2 days later.
I know it doesn't matter how my rotten body I'll leave behind will look like but I'm contemplating on fasting for 48 hours before I attempt to CTB, and probably cover my head with a hoodie, to make the scene less traumatic for my family.
this video in particular has made me think how I want my body to look like when I am hanged :
sorry if it's inappropriate , I just don't have anywhere else to discuss about it. and English is not my first language so sorry for any grammar / spelling mistakes.