Who would you write a suicide note to?

[Felodese]

Who would/have you written notes to? I've written one to my family that basically just "I'm choosing death bc it's the better option" and more in depth letters to my two best friends.
Considering writing one to my shrink, since he has actually really tried to help me - unlike most health professionals I've met - and I quite like him. But maybe that's too wierd..?

 

[assisted]

i was going to say, "probably no one" but then i remembered my ex-boyfriend

Who would/have you written notes to? I've written one to my family that basically just "I'm choosing death bc it's the better option" and more in depth letters to my two best friends.
Considering writing one to my shrink, since he has actually really tried to help me - unlike most health professionals I've met - and I quite like him. But maybe that's too wierd..?

you should write to anyone and everyone you want to
i've written to a lot of people in the past

 

[acephale]

I don't have anybody to write to, my family won't understand why I did it anyway. So I don't see the point of writing a note. Maybe I would write to my imaginary friends that would be satisfying.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Who would/have you written notes to? I've written one to my family that basically just "I'm choosing death bc it's the better option" and more in depth letters to my two best friends.
Considering writing one to my shrink, since he has actually really tried to help me - unlike most health professionals I've met - and I quite like him. But maybe that's too wierd..?

I've written multiple letters: one for family, with nice anecdotes that will make them cry; one for friends to apologise; one for wider society to make my views on assisted dying clear; and one for the coroner to explain how and why I killed myself.

 

[Felodese]

I've written multiple letters: one for family, with nice anecdotes that will make them cry; one for friends to apologise; one for wider society to make my views on assisted dying clear; and one for the coroner to explain how and why I killed myself.

Huh, interesting about the coroner.

I'm planning to use an emergency number text service, so I can schedule a massage to be sent well after I'm dead but hopefully before any civilian finds me. It just seems better for emergency workers to be the ones to find me.
Anyway, I've considered writing note to them saying something like "this was a suicide, please contact my family on this number", and like pin it to my shirt or something.
What I died from should be pretty evident.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Huh, interesting about the coroner.

I'm planning to use an emergency number text service, so I can schedule a massage to be sent well after I'm dead but hopefully before any civilian finds me. It just seems better for emergency workers to be the ones to find me.
Anyway, I've considered writing note to them saying something like "this was a suicide, please contact my family on this number", and like pin it to my shirt or something.
What I died from should be pretty evident.

Yes. I don't think many people write to the coroner, although coroners will read all suicide notes including those to family!

I've written to the coroner as I have a specific request: I want a nasal spray that I bought over-the-counter moved to prescription-only; I took this spray for too long and wrecked my nose, that's my reason for CTB.

 

[Felodese]

Yes. I don't think many people write to the coroner, although coroners will read all suicide notes including those to family!

I've written to the coroner as I have a specific request: I want a nasal spray that I bought over-the-counter moved to prescription-only; I took this spray for too long and wrecked my nose, that's my reason for CTB.

Oh, I see. Well, the coroner should be able to see the damage the spray has done, so that makes sense.
Just out of curiosity, what spray is it?

 

[slightoverlooked]

never wrote one when i attempted in the past bc it was all impulsive. if i would plan something i would write a letter to my mom and beg her to not follow me and keep living for my siblings and tell her none of this is her fault and I'm just exhausted. but yea i hope i never have to do that or i can ctb when shes already gone.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Oh, I see. Well, the coroner should be able to see the damage the spray has done, so that makes sense.
Just out of curiosity, what spray is it?

Xylometazoline hydrochloride! I stupidly took it for 2.5 years when you should take it for 7 days,
so I am at fault for sure. Even so, in my view, it shouldn't be sold over-the-counter.

 

[Felodese]

Xylometazoline hydrochloride! I stupidly took it for 2.5 years when you should take it for 7 days,
so I am at fault for sure. Even so, in my view, it shouldn't be sold over-the-counter.

Looks like it's over-the-counter in my country too. Even though it says it can kill off the mucus membrane in your nose...

 

[Heartaches]

My closest friends and my mother, but only if I feel I have anything to say.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Looks like it's over-the-counter in my country too. Even though it says it can kill off the mucus membrane in your nose...

Yup. That's the mistake I made. It's killed off the mucus membranes in my nose so I'm totally fucked. What country you in? I'm UK.

PS: I'm so glad this website exists. I've been able to source SN and plan my suicide, without this site I'd be faced with a lifetime of breathing difficulties as there's no euthanasia in my country.

 

[trappedinthislife]

My family and close friends, as well as society in general as they're a big reason why im this way. I dont need to worry about being a "rebel" after I get the message out anyways.

 

[justletmesleep]

I've already written a couple. Unfinished, but I addressed my parents, some friends, and even a couple teachers that have positively impacted my life. I dunno, just people I appreciated or felt it was important to acknowledge in some way.

 

[Daydream Believer]

I have written a lot of suicide notes in my mind to family and friends and ex partners during the last few weeks

 

[Felodese]

Yup. That's the mistake I made. It's killed off the mucus membranes in my nose so I'm totally fucked. What country you in? I'm UK.

PS: I'm so glad this website exists. I've been able to source SN and plan my suicide, without this site I'd be faced with a lifetime of breathing difficulties as there's no euthanasia in my country.

Sweden - so it's probably the same legislation when it comes to medication.
Unless big changes have happened since Brexit.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Sweden - so it's probably the same legislation when it comes to medication.
Unless big changes have happened since Brexit.

Oh right. It's a crazy situation. I got addicted to Xylo when I was living in Poland where the drug is also over-the-counter. Now I've damaged my nose so badly I can't breathe autonomically. My breathing is 'manual' every breath is conscious. Presumably this is all due to the absence of healthy mucosa.

Why do you want to CTB?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Everyone I can think of who might want to know what I was going through.

 

[unsaiddes]

I used to want to write a note for everyone who was significant to me, good or bad, apologetic or angry. Now I think I'll just write a very short, general one addressed to anyone who may read it. It's less personal than I'd like, but it will keep any painful drama amongst my family and few friends from occuring after the fact.

 

[Felodese]

Why do you want to CTB?

Lifelong depression and just a generally shitty life

 

[dggtscccvfd]

Lifelong depression and just a generally shitty life

What's your method? I'm going by SN.

 

[Felodese]

What's your method? I'm going by SN.

Gas + exit bag

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Send a note to so-called "god" and tell him how effed-up this (his) place is and why you felt the need to escape from it. Tell him he can stick it where the sun don't shine, too.

 

[lovedread]

No one. I just don't care anymore lol. My final note/message will just be instructions

 

[akwa]

Just my husband. Maybe the therapist who taunted me to kill myself letting her know I heard her loud and clear.

 

[sserafim]

I wouldn't write a note. Instead, I want to ctb to rebel and protest against society. I want to commit suicide as an act of defiance against society. I want to rage against the machine

 

[notevenhere]

My ex. though, I won't write to him. I'll most definitely video call him in my last moments because he's the only person who can calm me down and make me feel safe. I want to die in peace and would prefer to see his face in my last moments. We're still friends who talk to each other so I'm sure he'll pick up as long as he's not busy. I'm not planning to tell him I'm CBT. he said that he won't kill himself if i don't. but I don't really see a point in living if I can't be with him.

Apart from that, I'll send a letter to my grandmother that just simply says it's not her fault and thank her for raising me.

 

[Coconut blue]

I wouldn't write a note. Instead, I want to ctb to rebel and protest against society. I want to commit suicide as an act of defiance against society. I want to rage against the machine

same, so i was gonna say write one to everyone i know telling them to fuck themselve haha

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I wouldn't write a note. Instead, I want to ctb to rebel and protest against society. I want to commit suicide as an act of defiance against society. I want to rage against the machine

What if without a note, people assume you CTB'd because you actually love life and society and hated not being able to participate in it?

It's always good to write a note if you can so people know exactly what you were about. They can still misinterpret it but it's still better than nothing. I remember I once heard a story about someone who CTB'd and nobody knew why so they dug up an old diary entry of hers that just said "shit life" and they all erroneously assumed that the reason this poor girl killed herself was because she was ashamed of how she was a coprophiliac (lover of feces and excrement). If you don't want people making similar incorrect assumptions about you then it's best to leave a note anyway unless you don't really care which is perfectly valid.

 

[Mersault]

For the imaginary friend who are all-understanding, all-knowing, and all-caring.
I'm sure he deserves a letter.