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Daryl72

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Mar 12, 2024
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For whatever reason, you can't end it all so sleep is the next best thing to escaping the severe pain you are dealing with. I know for me, I beg for mercy before had. that I will not wake up, yet I always do. I guess that does there truly is no mercy in this world.
 
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Daryl72

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Mar 12, 2024
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Me it's the only escape I can.get with no means t numb my pain..It feels as if the walls are closing in and even sleep sometimes brings with it nightmares.
 
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emptyenvelopes

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Jun 15, 2024
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Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.
 
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Daryl72

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Mar 12, 2024
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You
Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.
really summed it up perfectly there. Exactly how I feel as well.
 
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emptyenvelopes

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Jun 15, 2024
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You

really summed it up perfectly there. Exactly how I feel as well.
It's so awful, it's the worst way to start every single day. If you experience this too, how do you cope?
 
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jumpman133

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Mar 27, 2024
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I absolutely feel like this. I wish I wouldn't wake up.
 
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BadChanges

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Sep 23, 2019
90
loool. I can't even sleep. One hour a night without deep sleep. Just staring at the ceiling.
 
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N3UR0T1C

CTB Today
Jul 13, 2019
91
I would say the closest possible thing that you can get to dying while still being alive is surgical anesthesia. No dreaming, no consciousness.
 
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Heyyy

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May 12, 2024
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Yk sleeping is literally my favourite thing to do its a escape for me away from the real world and the abuse sleeping is the most comforting thing tho I'll prolly be gone soon <3
Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.
Yes waking up is soo painful with all the physical and verbal abuse maybe it was all just my fucking fault
 
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Midwest_Indigo

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Jun 17, 2024
14
Yes, lately for me. Today is the first day in awhile I managed to get up BEFORE 2 PM. I've also had a lot of comforting dreams lately, and it hurts to wake up. I want to live in the safety of my dreams. I know that's not the case for many people, especially if they have nightmares, but I keep having reoccurring safe people in my dreams who visit me. Every day I wonder why I woke up. I know I can technically change things and I am aware of what is and isn't in my control, but everyone makes it sound so easy, to just "take one day at a time". No one understands the dread.
 
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Daryl72

Student
Mar 12, 2024
161
Yes, lately for me. Today is the first day in awhile I managed to get up BEFORE 2 PM. I've also had a lot of comforting dreams lately, and it hurts to wake up. I want to live in the safety of my dreams. I know that's not the case for many people, especially if they have nightmares, but I keep having reoccurring safe people in my dreams who visit me. Every day I wonder why I woke up. I know I can technically change things and I am aware of what is and isn't in my control, but everyone makes it sound so easy, to just "take one day at a time". No one understands the dread.
totally get that, no one does understand or dread.
 
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KillingPain267

Warlock
Apr 15, 2024
739
For whatever reason, you can't end it all so sleep is the next best thing to escaping the severe pain you are dealing with. I know for me, I beg for mercy before had. that I will not wake up, yet I always do. I guess that does there truly is no mercy in this world.
Jokes on you, I cannot sleep. I got sleeping plls which help, but now my family found then and think they are hard drugs. They are impossible to eason with scientifically. I hate them so much.
 
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ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Sleeping is my only way to cope
 
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bitofftoomuch

hold onto those who accept your messy self
Jul 1, 2024
38
Sometimes I even feel good during the first few minutes of waking up. Then I remember all the shit I'm dealing with.

My stressors make me want to CTB now but I have things I want to do in August and September. I don't know how I will feel after that, but I hope it's either well enough to enjoy life, or clear enough about my suffering to get everything over with.
 
Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,379
I hate sleep to be honest. It's an elapse of time that doesn't exist
 
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divinemistress36

Visionary
Jan 1, 2024
2,404
Sleep is like being dead without the commitment . I love dreaming always full of adventures
 
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Edpal247

Experienced
Jul 9, 2024
222
Sleep is AWESOME! Which I could just sleep forever.
 
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