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phersper
F*ck psychiatry
- Jun 28, 2023
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I've noticed that on this forum a lot of people take antipsychotics. How do you all feel about it?
I suffer from pssd (mostly anhedonia and emotional blunting) because of an ssri and lamictal I took between October and December 2022. Even after two months of discontinuation the symptoms of pssd were unbereable and so I tried to ctb fir the first time in february 2023, I failed and I was sent for 3 months into a psych ward. At the beginning they were giving me invega and a huge dose (3x per day) of nozinan, a super strong old antispychotic. For one month I was barely able to walk and talk. Then for the last two months of hospitalization they changed the therapy to zyprexa and lithium. Things got a little better, but still not recovered to how I was feelin as before the first zombie therapy (nozinan and invega).
Now it's been 2 months I m completely off all this poisonous drugs but I still feel numbed, dumb, having troubles with my speech and muscle twitching (when I contract them), loss of coordination in my body, especially legs, feet and hands (my writing became smaller and shaky). Cognitively I feel like I lost 40% of my capabilities.
All these meds ruined me and I'm wondering if I ll ever recover, but when I talk to doctors they deny with utter decision that these drugs can ruin your brain, they state that once you're out you go back to your normal self.
The only drug I still take is 5mg lorazepam (which does nothing but if I miss the dose I feel the wd symptoms which is not pleasant). I'm very suicidal when I think of how smart, sporty, brilliant, chatty and energetic I was. AD and especially AP took all that away from me.
Is there someone who can relate to my story? Is healing possible (emotionally, cognitively and body coordination)? I'll be able to go back to my "normal" self? I really lost my personality, plus the only feeling I have is insane anxiety and I'm really considering an antidepressant (but I m scared of worsening the situation) to cure at least this symptom, otherwise I ll stay in my bed all day shaking with tachycardia.
Considering a lot of people here take psych meds, I d really love to have a good debate on this important topic and get to know if these drugs help you, screw your mind, makes you a walking zombie, etc?
I suffer from pssd (mostly anhedonia and emotional blunting) because of an ssri and lamictal I took between October and December 2022. Even after two months of discontinuation the symptoms of pssd were unbereable and so I tried to ctb fir the first time in february 2023, I failed and I was sent for 3 months into a psych ward. At the beginning they were giving me invega and a huge dose (3x per day) of nozinan, a super strong old antispychotic. For one month I was barely able to walk and talk. Then for the last two months of hospitalization they changed the therapy to zyprexa and lithium. Things got a little better, but still not recovered to how I was feelin as before the first zombie therapy (nozinan and invega).
Now it's been 2 months I m completely off all this poisonous drugs but I still feel numbed, dumb, having troubles with my speech and muscle twitching (when I contract them), loss of coordination in my body, especially legs, feet and hands (my writing became smaller and shaky). Cognitively I feel like I lost 40% of my capabilities.
All these meds ruined me and I'm wondering if I ll ever recover, but when I talk to doctors they deny with utter decision that these drugs can ruin your brain, they state that once you're out you go back to your normal self.
The only drug I still take is 5mg lorazepam (which does nothing but if I miss the dose I feel the wd symptoms which is not pleasant). I'm very suicidal when I think of how smart, sporty, brilliant, chatty and energetic I was. AD and especially AP took all that away from me.
Is there someone who can relate to my story? Is healing possible (emotionally, cognitively and body coordination)? I'll be able to go back to my "normal" self? I really lost my personality, plus the only feeling I have is insane anxiety and I'm really considering an antidepressant (but I m scared of worsening the situation) to cure at least this symptom, otherwise I ll stay in my bed all day shaking with tachycardia.
Considering a lot of people here take psych meds, I d really love to have a good debate on this important topic and get to know if these drugs help you, screw your mind, makes you a walking zombie, etc?