All I can do is dream, for I am so, so tired.
Mar 12, 2023
Fyodor Dotoyevski (I hope I type that right) I think. I especially like this quote of his:
Now I ask you: what can be expected of man since he is a being endowed with strange qualities? Shower upon him every earthly blessing, drown him in a sea of happiness, so that nothing but bubbles of bliss can be seen on the surface; give him economic prosperity, such that he should have nothing else to do but sleep, eat cakes and busy himself with the continuation of his species, and even then out of sheer ingratitude, sheer spite, man would play you some nasty trick. He would even risk his cakes and would deliberately desire the most fatal rubbish, the most uneconomical absurdity, simply to introduce into all this positive good sense his fatal fantastic element. It is just his fantastic dreams, his vulgar folly that he will desire to retain, simply in order to prove to himself—as though that were so necessary—that men still are men and not the keys of a piano, which the laws of nature threaten to control so completely that soon one will be able to desire nothing but by the calendar. (from Notes from Underground)
Honorable mention to Arthur Schopenhauer and Friedrich Nietzsche too.


May 17, 2022
I added these to my reading table.

Cambridge Edition of:

Descartes - Meditation on First Philosophy

Nietzsche - Daybreak


May 22, 2023
Camus has always resonated with me on a deep level. The way he describes the struggle to keep fighting in the face of this senseless absurdity called life. Haven't read anything of his in ages. The Plauge sounds really good right now.
read the plague it is amazing. also myth of sisyphus is one of his monumental works