Discussion Who in real life knows you want to CTB? Poll

[hellispink]

No one knows . Cause no one cares and I dont wanna hear them talk shit to me. They would be happy if i disappear so i would never tell them of my pain

 

[TapeMachine]

Nobody knows.

Although I have made a couple sarcastic remarks (sorta cryptic though) to my boyfriend lately, but I'm not sure he understands the weight of my riddles & words. And that's preferable, because I'm working to make my next attempt my final and fatal one, and I do not want anyone to stop me or interfere in any way.

 

[Ifonlyitwassosimple]

My sister knows but I don't think she really believes or cares that I will do it. This will be my third attempt.

 

[Lost]

Nobody knows. Since I had a failed attempt and they told my I am selfish

 

[denix66]

Nadie sabe.... Nadie quiere escuchar cosas así... ¿Por qué decirlas...? Lo unico que me detiene de ctb son mis dos hijos.. Un chico de 29 años y mi hijo de 19.........Creo que no les puedo hacer esto... .. Pero se que llegara el dia .. .. Ya tengo bien escondidos los medios necesarios...... Saludos a todos....
Nobody knows.... Nobody wants to hear things like that... Why say them...? The only thing that stops me from ctb are my two children... A 29-year-old boy and my 19-year-old son ......... I think I can't do this to them... .. But I know the day will come .. .. I already have the necessary means well hidden... Greetings to all.

 

[Kurushii]

I will never tell any of my family of my wishes to ctb because I can't have anyone stopping me. I don't want their pity and them not understanding me. My mum probably knows I'm depressed because it's obvious but I don't know if she knows I'm suicidal.

I think I told 4 people in real life that I want to leave this world all with the same response of "No don't do it". I don't know if they remember as it was a while ago. But one of the people definitely knows that I want to ctb and why. He still doesn't want me to die though. So in real life 1-5 people know I want to die. If I had to guess I would say only my one friend truly knows.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

No one knows it'll be a traumatic shock to everyone to find out I ctb. My parents and GF will be the hardest hit, since it took my GF so long to find a guy that's right for her.

 

[gar3z]

I remember joking about it with one of my friends, she has some mental illnesses and takes antidepressants. I guess it's safe to say we probably were not just joking around.

 

[krxbs]

i think i told a few friends in the past but none suspect it atm. my folks might've had the sneakiest of suspicions at some point, but not anymore... it would certainly come as a surprise to everyone in my life. last time i told a very close friend, it stressed him out really bad for a while and kind of motivated me to get my shit together for a bit. i don't trust him anymore so i have nothing to hold onto, which is... good? either way, i try not to let on much.

 

[missingpeace]

My family is aware that I have mental issues and I'm under psychiatric care but no one knows that I'm considering suicide for real.. unfortunately today my father found packaged rope in my room that I wanted to test hanging with and asked me why I had it, I came up with a lame excuse and now he's confiscated it off me. I can buy some more that's not a problem but I think he is on alert now and will probably tell my mum. I have an alternative with some SN hidden away that I wanted to use in the next month but now that he is suspicious its giving me mixed feelings about the situation. It will never change the fact that I want to go asap though. Also a friend kind of has an inkling that I will do it due to several conversations I've had about how helpless I feel in my situation but I haven't explicitly told her, she was just asked to stop asking further questions. Its best to just keep your mouth shut and not indicate to anybody about what you intend to do, although I do wish I had someone in person to talk to about it all, someone who would not try and stop me but would just accept my decision to do whatever it is and support me as I take the necessary steps. Because it is scary to ctb and my decision to go was not an impulsive one but a completely rational choice based on my illness.. I wish our society was progressed enough to accept someone's right to die as per their wish, one can dream, eh..

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't have anyone to tell. Not that I would tell even if I did.

 

[enough of this]

Some of my small handful of friends know and understand why. My brother, my only remaining family member, doesn't know, and will never know.
He would just hound me to be seen by a psychiatrist. He might even initiate an intervention on me. That would make me CTB the first chance I got.

 

[NoReasonToLive2023]

My family and friends know I'm going through a hard time, but I'm not telling anyone about what I'm planning. They'd stop me.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

noone knows and thats good

 

[Unattainable666]

I've not told anyone. Quite honestly, even if I told someone, there is no one who gives a shit, so why bother? I don't want anyone to try to stop me when the time comes.