Who else wants to die first thing they wake up

[inneedrelief]

It's like you know you wanna die right when you wake up and then the rest of the day you get used to it and happens all over again.

 

[uniqueusername12]

Right now, yup that's pretty much my day. Get the same feeling coming back to me throughout the day as well.

I don't want to die, but I don't want to keep dragging myself through hell either. Limbo.

 

[4g1vvvven]

Absolutely this

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, within seconds of waking up, it's there.

 

[hikikomorizombie]

yup. want to die as soon as i regain consciousness & am upset i didn't die in my sleep. then im upset all day bc im not dead. then i gts & do it all over again, lmao. 1 day i'll finally manage to break the cycle & get the job done.

 

[inneedrelief]

Yeah, within seconds of waking up, it's there.

Wow same here. It's cuz I know I know I have to go thru bs again.

Absolutely this

Hell yes

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I do sometimes after a really bad C/PTSD nightmare, about family or something.

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course I do, I find it so dreadful to wake up and realise that I'm still trapped here, only eternal nothingness could ever be desirable to me. I'm always wishing for the peace of non-existence, to have the ability to exist is so burdensome, in this futile existence where there is unlimited potential for pain and torment the only comfort lies in the thought of being eternally free from it.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I do. Whenever I wake up, I wish that I died during my sleep and I'm sad that I didn't die during my sleep

 

[Slow_Farewell]

There was a time, yes, that would be something i'd welcome.
But then i learned/read about the aftermath and all, like for the people who'd discover you, the stink my body would make, the cleanup after and i was like "i dont want to traumatize someone else if i can avoid it", so as tempting as it is, no, i dont wake up wanting to die first thing. If any, I wake up asking myself if I did anything the previous day to get me one step closer to my CTB goals.

 

[Little_Suzy]

I hate mornings!

 

[inneedrelief]

There was a time, yes, that would be something i'd welcome.
But then i learned/read about the aftermath and all, like for the people who'd discover you, the stink my body would make, the cleanup after and i was like "i dont want to traumatize someone else if i can avoid it", so as tempting as it is, no, i dont wake up wanting to die first thing. If any, I wake up asking myself if I did anything the previous day to get me one step closer to my CTB goals.

So I presume you're only speaking by your own hands But a lot of accidental deaths are gonna be stinky and how you described it. Usually people have to discover you either way whether it's by your own hands or another

I hate mornings!

I'm sorry

 

[Slow_Farewell]

So I presume you're only speaking by your own hands But a lot of accidental deaths are gonna be stinky and how you described it. Usually people have to discover you either way whether it's by your own hands or another

I'm sorry

Interesting take but not necessarily true (being discovered by people). There's a way to plan it in such a way that one just fades away.
If it was not by my own hands, I would agree with your take on it.

 

[Kurai]

Yes everyday:(

 

[inneedrelief]

Yes everyday:(

:(

 

[Toobrokentofix]

Every single day I wake to this impending sense of doom.