Who else knows for a fact that they have less than 6 months left to live?

[Fragile]

both as in terminal conditions or dying by their own hand.

now that we are in 2020 everything feels more real, i know 100% that this will be my final year and i will CTB around Spring, feels like i'm in borrowed time and the clock is ticking, but at the same time i can't wait for it to end.

anyone else feels this way?

 

[mediocre]

Yes constant 24/7 pain has taken its toll. I could've lived with having Aspergers, having no friends or having a social life but the physical pain on top of all that no. Hopefully it will be my final few days or even few hours rather than months. I just want it to end.

 

[HereToday]

Yeah, this is my final month. The only reason I'm still around is because my SN didn't arrive, so I've ordered more and N too. Whichever arrives first is what I'll take. Bring on the bus

 

[JohnUK]

Yes. Hopefully I'll be dead within the next couple of months

 

[Fragile]

Yes constant 24/7 pain has taken its toll. I could've lived with having Aspergers, having no friends or having a social life but the physical pain on top of all that no. Hopefully it will be my final few days or even few hours rather than months. I just want it to end.

In a way i relate to your feelings, i could've lived with the pain, my chronic illnesses and being socially awkward but only if i was at least good looking. the mirror has always been my greatest pain, even more so than my chronic conditions that cause almost unbearable physical pain.

 

[Meant2Die]

6 months, more like 6 days..

 

[BlueWidow]

I plan to be gone by the middle of February, if not sooner. Have my SN ready. Now that the holidays and new year are over, I'll just be tying up loose ends.

Yes constant 24/7 pain has taken its toll. I could've lived with having Aspergers, having no friends or having a social life but the physical pain on top of all that no. Hopefully it will be my final few days or even few hours rather than months. I just want it to end.

I'm in a similar boat to you, in that there are multiple things that are causing me to come to the point of ctb. To be honest, my husband's death alone would've been enough for me to ctb because the pain is unlike anything I've ever felt in my entire life. That's saying something because I've been in emotional pain for most of my life. I lost my mother when I was only 3, and my sister (Who was like a second mother to me) died of the exact same cancer in almost the exact same pattern and way that my mother did when I was 13. So it was like reliving the same trauma twice in a row. Then you add in the fact that I've spent 25 years now trying to get my thyroid treated and no doctor will take it seriously. They only give me enough medication to keep me barely functioning, if that. Then on top of that I now have to deal with the severe grief of my husband's death, which is the worst emotional pain I've ever felt in my life. I didn't know anyone could feel pain this horrible and continue to live. I constantly feel like there's a knife twisting around in my stomach and tearing at me. And now on top of all that, I'm going through menopause, which is wreaking havoc with all of my other hormones (in addition to my thyroid). At some point, it just all becomes too much to bear and there's nothing you can do. Anyone who would expect someone to continue on like this must be out of their mind. I would dare any one of these pro- life assholes to step into my shoes (or the shoes of anyone on this forum) for even a week and see if they could survive.

 

[JustAnotherSuicider]

I hope I will finally find enough courage to CTB and 2020 will be my last year. I'm planning to be out of here before the second half of the year. Wish me luck.

 

[konarti]

Just waiting on a few deliveries, 11th Jan is the date I have in mind.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I have to do it before April. I won't forgive myself being alive after that month.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I'm in my final few weeks now. Feel very at peace with my decision, very comfortable with my method and there is a sense of urgency about it all as well now. I'm almost excited. My body, my mind, my soul, it's all so tired from fighting my demons day in and day out. I need this rest, I deserve it.

 

[Trisolaris]

Although I don't know for sure, this will most probably be the year. With each suicidal episode my desire and resolve grow. 2 years ago I had a strong desire. About I year ago I began researching and had half hearted attempts. Currently, I'm post a serious attempt, with concrete plans, and a timeline for when I do it. I don't see something that will bring me out of my current situation and I'm 95% ready.
I'm very close to the edge and it is likely I'll do it in the coming weeks.

 

[Final Escape]

I know I'm close, I wanted to give it till end of this month and then I'll be ready. I'm saving a little money to take a little mini vacation before I ctb. I mean I don't want it to be a sad event even though it is. I want to enjoy my final days and not worry about nothing just b4 ctb.

 

[hatelife]

was going to tonight or tomorrow but then my dad went to hospital for chest pains, wish me luck to go through it soon, cant live for anybody else anymore, ppl sure dont do it for me.

 

[The Hunter]

I don't think I'II last a few more months. I'm almost absolutely sure that I can't connect with a girl. I'm a handsome guy (the girls say that) and I think I'm a handsome guy too and I was cool but some things destroyed me and maybe I myself contributed to my almost complete destruction but I can't blame myself anymore. But maybe I'm guilty or one of the culprits, who knows. Maybe there are no culprits.

 

[Empty Smile]

I've made my decision that this year is my year. My last attempt was last New Year's Eve, and was caught before I could carry it through.

I've made up some plans as not to attract attention, and to appear as someone who is just out hiking in the woods. Once deep enough in the woods, I'm stepping off the trail and go for several miles from the trail or any roads. If I accomplish ctb, yay me... If not, as I always say, I will not be coming back out of the woods. I will live there until something kills me(but the way my luck is, I'd live to be 105).

cant live for anybody else anymore, ppl sure dont do it for me.

Truer words were never spoken!

 

[zherhk]

I can't take it anymore. Not even a week. It's a 24h nightmare.

I don't think I'II last a few more months. I'm almost absolutely sure that I can't connect with a girl. I'm a handsome guy (the girls say that) and I think I'm a handsome guy too and I was cool but some things destroyed me and maybe I myself contributed to my almost complete destruction but I can't blame myself anymore. But maybe I'm guilty or one of the culprits, who knows. Maybe there are no culprits.

What happened? If you want to talk about it.

 

[The Hunter]

I can't take it anymore. Not even a week. It's a 24h nightmare.

For me too, and my parents won't let me drink vodka for now, I want to get drunk all the time.

 

[Jean4]

I don't know. I should be dead right now due to my medical illnesses, but I am a freak of nature and doctors do not know why I am the chosen one to stay alive.

CTB? I am sticking with it's not my time yet. After the havoc I caused the other day for an impulse CTB which was stopped, it isn't my time yet.

All subject to change. Today, I am here.

 

[The Hunter]

I don't know. I should be dead right now due to my medical illnesses, but I am a freak of nature and doctors do not know why I am the chosen one to stay alive.

CTB? I am sticking with it's not my time yet. After the havoc I caused the other day for an impulse CTB which was stopped, it isn't my time yet.

All subject to change. Today, I am here.

What was your method in this impulsive attempt?

 

[Jean4]

What was your method in this impulsive attempt?

I am always an impulsive CTB. I have respiratory failure with Hypoxia. I also use oxygen. My lungs are shot. I don't take my meds, my oxygen will eventually drop. I overdose on my meds, it definitely will. It's very easy for me to CTB.

 

[PartingGlass]

I keep feeling like that but I don't know man I'm still so apprehensive about ending it.

 

[chris8000]

Yes constant 24/7 pain has taken its toll. I could've lived with having Aspergers, having no friends or having a social life but the physical pain on top of all that no. Hopefully it will be my final few days or even few hours rather than months. I just want it to end.

Yeah the relentless incurable severe physical pain makes it seem pointless to me, unfortunately.

My plan is to get on a jumbo jet to heaven.

 

[LMLN]

I sure feel like this is the case. I had planned right after the New Year. I have all the supplies for SN. But somehow having them has given me a feeling of control I did not feel previously.
Right now I have set a tentative time in February. That's as far as I think I can make it right now.

Besides that, a relative has had some heart problems and surgery. I dont want to create more stress for the family that way.

 

[Girobatol]

I want to do it right now but my mother is visiting. The fact that she and my sister live abroad just stresses me a lot. My funeral will be a waste of money because they need to travel. But I cant take it anymore.

 

[enjoy]

me! i will be dead in 5 months to the day.

 

[TheEndof]

Yes. I'd do it now (or at least much sooner) if I could, but I'm holding out for my son. As soon as I have things in order for him, I'll go. Though that likely won't happen until May or June. I don't know how to wait that long, but I must.

 

[Jumper]

In 2017, 10.6 million US adults seriously thought about suicide, 3.2 million made a plan, and 1.4 million attempted.

Actual suicide deaths amounted to <1%, 1.5%, and 3.4% of those numbers, respectively (as a point of reference, the acceptance rate into Harvard college in 2017 was 5.8%... so getting into Harvard is a lot easier).

So no, I think it's a little delusional to say that I have less than 6 months to live, "for a fact". Suicide is exceptionally hard to accomplish.

My guess is that both you and I will survive well beyond 2020, unfortunately.

This is why assisted suicide laws should be more encompassing.

 

[chris8000]

To be fair, a lot of people who fail, haven't thought it well through and researched different options.

Yeah, I think we all can agree state assisted euthanasia laws should be more liberal.

 

[ElMow]

The end of this month is the end of me.