Who else is having a ~*fantastic*~ new year?

[Ai-chan]

I bet a lot of us are having such a great time!! I know I am!!!!

 

[tinkatonshammer]

had to leave a party early due to a flare up, cried the whole way home. fucking blows, here's to hopefully a better year for all of us

 

[MidnightDream]

I've literally spent the last 9 days in bed.
Standard winter cold --> Throat infection --> Course of antibiotics with nasty side effects --> One day of almost peace (still choking on food yk) --> Wisdom teeth decide now's the PERFECT time to come through, making the entire right side of my face swell and giving me the worlds worst pain in my jaw, teeth and SURPRISE SURPRISE, MY THROAT. Only the one side though, because yk, balance. And then to top it all off (sorry dudes, tmi) my period keeps hopping in and out of the chat just to taunt me too so I'm just simply not having a good time at all I want to literally remove my head from my shoulders.

 

[Ai-chan]

I've literally spent the last 9 days in bed.
Standard winter cold --> Throat infection --> Course of antibiotics with nasty side effects --> One day of almost peace (still choking on food yk) --> Wisdom teeth decide now's the PERFECT time to come through, making the entire right side of my face swell and giving me the worlds worst pain in my jaw, teeth and SURPRISE SURPRISE, MY THROAT. Only the one side though, because yk, balance. And then to top it all off (sorry dudes, tmi) my period keeps hopping in and out of the chat just to taunt me too so I'm just simply not having a good time at all I want to literally remove my head from my shoulders.

Ah yes sick buddies!! In all seriousness though I hope you feel better soon

 

[vultureilse]

i spent the entire day rotting in my bed, venting to strangers on the internet for validation and staring at my window watching the fireworks thinking about how lonely i am while other people are spending this time with their friends and families so yep im having a ton of fun rn

 

[Monkeyman]

Mine was terrible. I wanted so much to spend it with my friends, I always feel better around them, but because of obnoxious family matters I had to stay home with relatives feeling really uncomfortable.

 

[MidnightDream]

Ah yes sick buddies!! In all seriousness though I hope you feel better soon

Hahaha nice to know I'm not alone, I hope you do too! <3

 

[leeloosnow]

not at all. i hate pretty much everything. somethings less than others.
sry for being pissy. hope you have a nice holiday tho <3

 

[stermc]

hope you have a nice year but surely this year is my year. and i am honestly so happy about it. i am so happy i am going home this year. viva 2023!!!

 

[MountainMonkey]

I didn't cry or fantasize about ending my life today, so all in all….good day

 

[apple2myeye!]

this year was fucikig no good shitty awful but today was ok i guess, had nice dinner and just kinda relaxed most of the day. i didnt get to do that very often this year. not that im even registering 2023 as a "new year" anyway lol, every year since 2020 has just been complete mush.

cant fucking believe the last day of such a shit year was as tolerable as it was for me. it's like.. kinda insulting, in a weird way?? Like its just "the universe's" (lol) way of telling me "hey this year wasn't THAAAAAAT bad now suck my dick and get back to work" which is what "it" does with a lot of things. idk i should pro0gbably just get to bed soon ive been staying up way too late the past few days. good niiiight sanctioned self caaaaaaareeeeeee happy new yearrrrrrrrr

 

[Rairii]

I know I am!! These fireworks that people are illegally setting off totally aren't triggering my ptsd haha. My stomach also decided it's weight loss time this year because everything I eat is making me incredibly sick and in pain. Totally cool, maybe I'll relapse fully with my ED and break my previous lowest weight record if this keeps up.

But there may be one unironic bright side this year. I'm going to have surgery which supposedly will reduce the symptoms of my bladder disorder significantly. Well not the pain part of it but at least the symptoms that I find the most unbearable. It won't cure anything for sure but if I can have just a little peace, I'll take it.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I know I am!! These fireworks that people are illegally setting off totally aren't triggering my ptsd haha. My stomach also decided it's weight loss time this year because everything I eat is making me incredibly sick and in pain. Totally cool, maybe I'll relapse fully with my ED and break my previous lowest weight record if this keeps up.

But there may be one unironic bright side this year. I'm going to have surgery which supposedly will reduce the symptoms of my bladder disorder significantly. Well not the pain part of it but at least the symptoms that I find the most unbearable. It won't cure anything for sure but if I can have just a little peace, I'll take it.

Nice! What surgery? I need some peace too. lol

 

[Rairii]

Nice! What surgery? I need some peace too. lol

It's the interstim implant.

They tried to offer botox before trying it but apparently that has a chance of causing urinary retention to the point where you need to use a catheter for some time after and I uh am not wanting to take that risk lol. I hope you get some peace too.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

It's the interstim implant.

They tried to offer botox before trying it but apparently that has a chance of causing urinary retention to the point where you need to use a catheter for some time after and I uh am not wanting to take that risk lol. I hope you get some peace too.

I probably wouldn't do the botox either. Good luck with the stim!

 

[Ravel]

I just wanted to spend my night alone as usual. Loneliness doesn't bother me that much. I've been living these 24 years of my life alone. unfortunately there was a lot of noise from the fireworks and I just wanted to try to sleep and my family decided to come to my house and it was really embarrassing

 

[Ineedtodie]

So perfectly painful.not capablle even of ironie.

 

[FuneralCry]

You are being sarcastic right. I mean it's a suicide discussion after all so you cannot be serious. But I find it to be absolutely dreadful that I've managed to exist for yet another year and it's also awful how all that lies ahead are just endless days trapped in the same existence with no limit as to how much we can suffer. I really do despise being here and no amount of words can describe how much I do.

But I so hate all of the toxic positivity that some people force onto others whenever a new year starts, like no some people see life for what it really is and are not privileged and deluded enough to be blinded by the idea of 'happiness'. They are probably just faking being all positive as well. But yes, at least no matter what this is one year closer to me being gone from this world as after all, all that existing is, is just waiting around to die.

 

[Hurt]

For me it will be the same as past years or maybe worse. Only changes a number.

 

[hellispink]

I had a very borderline crisis shit last night . I cried to sieep all night. Cheers.

 

[Lostandlooking]

Mine wasn't that bad. Not feeling festive by a long shot. But I don't care about that. When the fireworks started around 5pm I resorted to my noise cancelling headphones for a couple of hours. Which helps a bit but not enough. So this year I had some edibles, some wine and a benzo. This made me woozy enough to tune out a bit. didn't receive too many messages, so I didn't feel overwhelmed. My cats were scared and I tried to soothe them a bit. At 12pm I had to put on the noise cancelling headphones again and blast some music. Overall I prefer rest and silence. But I made the best of it I think. Because of the explosions all day (and probably the wine, edibles and benzos) I was able to fall asleep quickly and I slept for a long time. Till about 3pm. Pretty good. I was able to forget my troubles for a bit. I can't always numb myself to this extent, I don't want to develop an addiction. Honestly I wouldn't want new years to go any differently. Except for the fireworks. I don't like them.

 

[Anonymus]

Oh how nice, another happy new year post...no, wait, on that one it looks like I can come clean.
I've had another night with minor bouts of angst from the noise and fireworks. I've had vertigo but it's been short lived.

I took a shower this morning at 7:45 am, finally... I hadn't washed or changed my clothes since December 17.
For weeks I have had a burning feeling in my stomach and guts and I spend the day nauseous and in a very bad mood... and now in the afternoon I feel faint again... and I can't stop arguing with any soul that comes near me.

What a wonderful holiday...

//

Oh que bé, un altre post de feliç any... no, espera, en aquest sembla que em puc sincerar.
He pasat un altre nit amb petits atacs d'angoixa a causa del soroll i els focs d'artifici. He tingut vertígens pero han durat poc.

M'he dutxat aquest matí a les 07'45h, per fi... portaba sense rentarme ni cambiarme de roba desde el 17 de desembre.
Fa setmanes que tinc l'estòmac i els budells com amb cremor i em passo el día amb nàuseas i de molt mala llet... i ara a la tarda torno a tenir sensació de desmai... i no paro de discutir amb qualsevol ànima que se m'apropi.

Quines festes més meravelloses...

 

[Lost Magic]

I drank a bottle of Baileys and some ciders, then took a sleeping pill to go to sleep. During my drinking session, I was chatting with a few (other) lonely souls online. Tbh it wasn't too bad. I thought it would have been worse. However, I don't want to see another Christmas and New Year.

 

[Dark Moon]

I've gone and spent some time with the family for lunch/dinner but only because I feel I have to, otherwise I won't and would be by myself. I can't stand the fireworks from yesterday. Regardless it's the same old for me always just a new year with the same pain and stuff throughout the year.

 

[Wannagonow]

You'd lose that bet. Holidays like this are hard for many people on this site. How do you not know this?

 

[spectraltease]

I bet a lot of us are having such a great time!! I know I am!!!!

Have no friends and gf was on vacation with her family I stayed alone at home and I did so if it would bother me but it did.

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I slept for like 14 hours like I do almost every day, and reluctantly got my ass out of bed. It's hard to do nothing every day since I graduated high school about 2 years ago. I waste my time every day, just waiting...

 

[Unending]

It's all the same for me. Whether 2022 or 2023, I'm just trying my hardest to distract myself from this agonizing nonsense. I'm completely disgusted by life.

 

[Help_Me]

At first meeting 2023 seemed ok, but I got extremely depressed a few hours ago.