who else get really freaked out about talking to someone before they CTB?

[glitterypearls]

I really want to help someone so they won't feel alone in their last days but I'm always worried that if their family found out our DM, they might blame me for it or drag me into some mess, I started to feel that after seeing those angry moms (you know who!) I felt the same way on reddit and I feel the same way here :/ it sucks because there is some people here who I feel like we would help each other if we talked but I don't need to be dragged into some mess that will just make my life worse, does anyone share the same POV?

 

[Deleted member 31858]

A week ago I was going to ctb I made a thread asking if someone could talk to me in my last hours but I did not get a positive answer, I am afraid of being alone at that moment, I suppose that is why I self-sabotaged drinking and taking drugs before taking my SN . Right now I'm planning something that I hope will turn out well and I can stay a little longer with my puppy. But we can talk if you want. When I ctb I'm going to close my accounts and format the cell phone

 

[looking_for_peace]

During a chat with a friend I met on this website, they unexpectedly revealed that they were hours away from taking SN, and asked if I could be there for them during their last moments. I backed out at the last second. They were kind enough to (I assume) lie and say they would take it another day, but they haven't been online since. Sadly, you're right when you say its risky. All it takes is one vengeful family member or friend to fuck up your life.

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

No talking, that just totally ruin the vibe & honestly kinda creepy.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, I do know where you're coming from. There was one member I had a lot of DM's with. It was so nice to more deeply connect with someone and be open with them. I know they were close to doing it. They stopped logging on- so- I have to assume they succeeded. I sort of wish they'd said goodbye but I think I would have been pretty hesitant if they had wanted to chat during the actual CTB. It's selfish I know but assisted suicide is illegal here and I don't know how they would define that. It's not like we knew each others names or addresses though- so- I wonder how they could blame someone for not intervening- but I suppose they could still.

I do think about them often- and their family. I wonder if they would be angry if they found our DM's. It's not like either of us were encouraging one another to do it. We were just a listening ear for one another- but you don't know how other people would see it. Some people seem to think we should all be trying to prevent one another from doing it- no matter that we likely want and intend to do it ourselves!

It's sad though- I agree. CTB is such a lonely and frightening thing to do. I think it's especially cruel that it carries a risk (I'm assuming) to actually be there for someone at that time.