Where i am now

[Sun Stealer]

Today I got my doctor to agree to let me stay on Serequel. Hope it's forever now. If I had remembered my interaction with green tea in August then I would probably never found this site as would have been able to cope with what I was going through. I don't want to leave this site. I don't want to die now, that may change I cannot predict the future. But I've met so many wonderful people here. I don't want to seem some fraud though. So if anyone has any thoughts on that please post

 

[Wantingpeace]

Nice to meet you all can say

 

[MachineGunDani]

We still want u here regardless! There's no requirements to this site and we can all still relate to each other. I'm happy for u that u don't want to die, it's a good thing!

 

[jaemus12]

No one said you have to ctb in order to be on this site. Like the mods have mentioned, it's all about being pro choice. If you don't want to die and (hopefully) on the road to recovery, that's great news. You don't have to leave Sanctioned Suicide if you don't want to while recovering.

However, I'm not sure if being on Sanctioned Suicide while recovering a good idea though because of the nature of the website.

Good luck to you Sun Stealer. It was nice to have met you and talked to you around here :)

 

[Sun Stealer]

What you folks have said, well 3 responses no one told me to go away. Means so much. Not sure how to explain just having a place where people understand and I understand them is won't say wonderful I would say peaceful in a strange kind of way. Most of my ctb attempts in the 80s or 90s. Only one more recent one when tried to get armed police to shoot me stood on a pier on lake Windermere. For all you here I got your backs

 

[RottingFlowerBrains]

We love you Sun stealer and we need you in our lives ♡♡♡

Any problems n they can F off lol

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Go away! No I'm trolling, but you knew that. It's all good man. Being a member of this site can simply mean you're an advocate for suicide in the right circumstances. None of us are on a set countdown, and God knows I keep naively trudging through my own life without having the balls to CTB, so you're in good company. If I'm good company. Which I hope I am.

 

[Gainax]

Evaluate all options and be fully commited to them, is what i advocate to anyone.

Good luck.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Don't feel bad about wanting to stay alive. That's your right. If you enjoy life, you should keep on enjoying it. We're not going to push you away, but keep in mind that we're a gloomy bunch :)

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I don't want to die now, that may change I cannot predict the future.

That's pretty much where we all are.

If we wanted to, we'd be off of here and getting it done. My peak suicidal thinking season is over (summer) so it may be next year. This could be my last winter.

 

[Sun Stealer]

Thanks everyone. I don't think I'm on a search for happiness, just to survive and find peace in my head I suppose

 

[Fucking loving it]

I really like having you here sun stealer

 

[Temporarilyabsurd]

@Sun Stealer : I'm kind of in the same zone fwiw

 

[Sun Stealer]

Absurd it's worth a lot my friend

 

[Ranza]

we must die many times before finding a truly happy life, We're not here to judge anyone.
There are secrets we hide from ourselves, who never bothered with his own image in the mirror?
sharing our pain elevates us in spirit...

 

[Sun Stealer]

Thanks Ranza

 

[Miss clefable]

Hugs you are lovely

 

[Sun Stealer]

So are you miss clef. All I am is a legal junkie. Take the meds away and will want to die again