Where can I shoot myself without being found?

[michaelbrownlee]

I'm going to kill myself because I'm socially awkward. Or because I was raped at 7. Or because my family never treated me right. Or because I lost my job and now I'm homeless. It doesn't really matter in the end I've wanted to die since I was 7. But where should I die? I'm a certified emergency first responder so I don't want to ruin someone's day or make a hotel room hard to clean. Am I too hung up on location even though I'm sending myself to oblivion as soon as I get my hands on a powerful gun? I'm thinking maybe renting a boat I'll never return to go far out in the ocean and lean over the side of the boat with a backpack full of rocks before I blow my brains out but I know as long as I'm not past the continental shelf another first responder will surface my corpse like I've had to do for others. I'm sick of talking.

 

[OneCFS]

I'm going to kill myself because I'm socially awkward. Or because I was raped at 7. Or because my family never treated me right. Or because I lost my job and now I'm homeless. It doesn't really matter in the end I've wanted to die since I was 7. But where should I die? I'm a certified emergency first responder so I don't want to ruin someone's day or make a hotel room hard to clean. Am I too hung up on location even though I'm sending myself to oblivion as soon as I get my hands on a powerful gun? I'm thinking maybe renting a boat I'll never return to go far out in the ocean and lean over the side of the boat with a backpack full of rocks before I blow my brains out but I know as long as I'm not past the continental shelf another first responder will surface my corpse like I've had to do for others. I'm sick of talking.

Where are you based, Michael?

 

[throwaway_2620]

I'm going to kill myself because I'm socially awkward. Or because I was raped at 7. Or because my family never treated me right. Or because I lost my job and now I'm homeless. It doesn't really matter in the end I've wanted to die since I was 7.

Since you're new to this forum, welcome to SS. I'm so sorry you had to go through that experience as a child and that you lost your job and you're homeless. As someone who has autism, I can relate to being socially awkward. As someone who is pro-choice, I respect your right to live as well as your right to die if you so choose. Either way, I wish you all the best and I hope you find what you're looking for.

Personally, I'd advise you to read the firearms megathread if firearm is your chosen method of ctb.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/guns-firearms-megathread.9042/

Feel free to read it in your own time.

Where are you based, Michael?

According to one of his posts, he's from Florida.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm going to kill myself because I'm socially awkward. Or because I was raped at 7. Or because my family never treated me right. Or because I lost my job and now I'm homeless. It doesn't really matter in the end I've wanted to die since I was 7. But where should I die? I'm a certified emergency first responder so I don't want to ruin someone's day or make a hotel room hard to clean. Am I too hung up on location even though I'm sending myself to oblivion as soon as I get my hands on a powerful gun? I'm thinking maybe renting a boat I'll never return to go far out in the ocean and lean over the side of the boat with a backpack full of rocks before I blow my brains out but I know as long as I'm not past the continental shelf another first responder will surface my corpse like I've had to do for others. I'm sick of talking.

Where can you rent a boat that they let you take fort few days? There seem to be some places off the coast where there is deep water.