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Xta4Love

Student
Dec 25, 2021
104
Where are you loved ones? Where are mine? I get a phone call once a week. They cant bear to be near me. Too much negative energy. They say they are worried for me. Once a a week. I put on a show to reassure them. I dont tell them how much I drink. Im drunk most of the day. Just to get some distance from my inner demons. They say they love me but i never get to see them. I dont even wat to see them anymore. I dont want to be a disgrace. I'll be dead within three months. They may mourn me but they weren't there when things got really though. Some say how can you do that to your loved ones. I say how can I not?
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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They are dead or hundreds of miles away. Really- I only have one left- my Dad. We talk a few times a week. He does care- which is why I'd never tell him just how bad I feel. There's nothing he can do to help. Hopefully- once he's passed, I'll have the guts to go too.
 
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Haruka

Haruka

the most beautiful angel
Mar 24, 2023
168
My Mum is my loved one, and she's unfortunately gone.
 
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f1lth

fleabag
Jul 9, 2023
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my parents died when i was young and i have three sisters ive never been close with. My partner doesnt truly care about me and if anything resents me, i dont think i have anyone
 
ringo99

ringo99

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Apr 18, 2023
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If that's the way you feel about them I don't think they qualify as "loved ones" anymore.
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

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Apr 17, 2023
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They're there but they can't understand because they're not me.
 

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