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- Dec 12, 2023
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I feel a bit lonely in this living hell. No help, no support, no cure in sight. No understanding, no acknowledgement anywhere - or so little...
Planning CTB is too hard with this hellish injury going on and I feel like I'm running out of time.
I don't hate life at all, I want to live so hard but my life has been robbed, taken away from me to such an extent that no one will ever be able to measure how much I have lost, how much we have lost.
I've read a signature here that says that there is no limit to human suffering : never has this statement resonated so much within me. And I thought I was living hell prior to that : how wrong was I ! If you feel like it, check some akathisia support groups or testimonies and you'll understand why it's a condition that has been described as literally inducing suicides.
One of its core symptoms is suicidality urges in individuals with no prior history of SI : in those support groups I mentioned earlier, it's very common to see RIP threads popping up every other week mentioning sufferers who CTB.
Brain damage, whether iatrogenic or traumatic, are one of the worst things that can happen to an individual. It's invisible and unknown (as opposed to physical injuries or known "invisible" injuries like cancer) and when the brain is altered in its very miniature core, every symptom imaginable is a possibility. PSSD, TBI, akathisia... Living with one of those is experiencing first-hand a living abnormality, if that does make any sense.
Anyway, I'm not sure where I wanted to go with that thread. Maybe inform a bit about what I and others are living and more importantly, find a way to chat with those with similar tragic conditions. As I said above, it's a lonely and misunderstood road.
Feel free to say hi and share what you'd like to.
PS : this thread doesn't aim at diminishing the suffering and the tragic conditions of others. As I said, I just wanted to focus on those poorly known (if at all) conditions and brain injuries.
Planning CTB is too hard with this hellish injury going on and I feel like I'm running out of time.
I don't hate life at all, I want to live so hard but my life has been robbed, taken away from me to such an extent that no one will ever be able to measure how much I have lost, how much we have lost.
I've read a signature here that says that there is no limit to human suffering : never has this statement resonated so much within me. And I thought I was living hell prior to that : how wrong was I ! If you feel like it, check some akathisia support groups or testimonies and you'll understand why it's a condition that has been described as literally inducing suicides.
One of its core symptoms is suicidality urges in individuals with no prior history of SI : in those support groups I mentioned earlier, it's very common to see RIP threads popping up every other week mentioning sufferers who CTB.
Brain damage, whether iatrogenic or traumatic, are one of the worst things that can happen to an individual. It's invisible and unknown (as opposed to physical injuries or known "invisible" injuries like cancer) and when the brain is altered in its very miniature core, every symptom imaginable is a possibility. PSSD, TBI, akathisia... Living with one of those is experiencing first-hand a living abnormality, if that does make any sense.
Anyway, I'm not sure where I wanted to go with that thread. Maybe inform a bit about what I and others are living and more importantly, find a way to chat with those with similar tragic conditions. As I said above, it's a lonely and misunderstood road.
Feel free to say hi and share what you'd like to.
PS : this thread doesn't aim at diminishing the suffering and the tragic conditions of others. As I said, I just wanted to focus on those poorly known (if at all) conditions and brain injuries.
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