Venting Where am I stuck?

[oxymoron]

Where am I stuck in life? Neither do I die nor do I live. Why were we hand picked to suffer like this? Why couldn't we have a normal life?

 

[sadbunny]

I blame myself

 

[oxymoron]

I blame myself

Second that. Think I took my god damn life for granted.

 

[InkBlot]

Normal is overrated. How old are you mate?

 

[oxymoron]

Normal is overrated. How old are you mate?

28. Probably gonna spend 28 more years just like this. But I've been severely depressed since November last year.

 

[sadbunny]

Normal is overrated. How old are you mate?

I see that u are trying to help but nothing is over rated about peace happiness and contentment

 

[InkBlot]

28. Probably gonna spend 28 more years just like this. But I've been severely depressed since November last year.

I'm 27, I feel you there. Ill never advocate for giving up until youve expended your options.

Life is as it is. We cannot control it, only ourselves.

 

[oxymoron]

I see that u are trying to help but nothing is over rated about peace happiness and contentment

True. I get so jealous when I see people around living their best lives. Nonetheless they are healthy. I don't know about mental health. But physically they are. They don't have an illness. They are not bound to anything.

I'm 27, I feel you there. Ill never advocate for giving up until youve expended your options.

Life is as it is. We cannot control it, only ourselves.

Easier said than done.

 

[sadbunny]

True. I get so jealous when I see people around living their best lives. Nonetheless they are healthy. I don't know about mental health. But physically they are. They don't have an illness. They are not bound to anything.

Here's a popular saying: "Where the mind goes, the body follows"

 

[HGL91]

True. I get so jealous when I see people around living their best lives. Nonetheless they are healthy. I don't know about mental health. But physically they are. They don't have an illness. They are not bound to anything.

Easier said than done.

Yet. A person you see on the street living walking around in good physical health could get hit by a car the next day, or die in a plane crash, or be diagnosed with cancer, etc. None of us get out of this world in one piece. Some of us have our physical health longer than others, but that's it.

 

[wanttodie.nz]

I blame myself

As do I

 

[oxymoron]

Yet. A person you see on the street living walking around in good physical health could get hit by a car the next day, or die in a plane crash, or be diagnosed with cancer, etc. None of us get out of this world in one piece. Some of us have our physical health longer than others, but that's it.

It's be nice if I get hit by a car or die in a plane crash. That doesn't happen either.

 

[ExitTheDay]

Eh, I've come to accept there isn't a definite definition for "normal", normal is stupid, normal is crazy, normal could mean anything but in a awakened society normal means absolutely nothing

 

[chimeraq]

I blame myself

me too. i agree. you can say the childhoods fucked us but beyond a point, we could have changed. even created an almost new (though never completely new) personalities for ourselves had we had the courage. we didn't and here we are on a suicide forum.

 

[oxymoron]

Yeah I just wish I get hit by a stray bullet or get run over by a truck or never wake up from my sleep tonight. Life becomes unbearable for us. For others it's a blessing. It's a curse for us.

 

[oxymoron]

Maybe we don't deserve to suffer then.

 

[Dawn0071111]

me too. i agree. you can say the childhoods fucked us but beyond a point, we could have changed. even created an almost new (though never completely new) personalities for ourselves had we had the courage. we didn't and here we are on a suicide forum.

"...and here we are on a suicide forum..."

Lololol... needed that little giggle

 

[HGL91]

How do you know that healthy person that got hit by a car, didn't deserve to get hit by the car? We should never assume that healthy people deserve to live... might be a monstor

I mean, objectively, no one really deserves anything, but it's nice that we have a system in society that at least rewards kindness to some degree.

I never said a healthy person deserved to live. All I said was that even healthy people eventually become sick at some point in their life. Some people just stay healthy longer...like actress, Betty White, for example. She's 97 and still has more energy than me. Or Betsey Johnson who is 76 and does cartwheels down the fashion runway. But overtime, even these old people with tons of energy get sick and die.

 

[HGL91]

I get what your saying... my dad was asshole walking and he lived a long time, but a man who acted like my dad and was a good man, died to early.

I'm sorry to hear that your father-like figure left too soon. :/

 

[oxymoron]

How to die. Don't want another second of this senseless suffering.

 

[oxymoron]

I like your name...today life feels like an oxymoron to the nth degree. Sorry you want to die so badly, I don't know why, and it might sound dumb, but some people on here...through their post, I can feel a twinge of their pain...your one of them. Hope it gets better for you. At least I do have endless access to Cannabis and some days that's the only thing that gets me through the day.

I won't do cannabis cos my mind is already this ^

 

[oxymoron]

LOL, I couldn't do without out it! Did you draw that? Pretty creative

No didn't draw it. Found it on suicide memes.

 

[joshe]

Am i rare for not actually blaming myself and seeing clearly the circumstances that led me to this place?

 

[oxymoron]

Am i rare for not actually blaming myself and seeing clearly the circumstances that led me to this place?

Doesn't matter, does it? We both are on the same page, wishing someone burnt the page for us, thereby ceasing the page and our senseless existences.

 

[hejakdgiwbq]

It's likely that all of our desires are in reach, we just have to stretch far enough to reach them.

 

[oxymoron]

It's likely that all of our desires are in reach, we just have to stretch far enough to reach them.

I realized the extent of the discrepancy between the life I wish I had, and the one I do have, and that everything it would take to even make it anywhere close to that far exceeded the amount of strength, effort, and will that I have remaining after being run over by this train wreck of life.