Been waiting for the universe to grant me my one way ticket outta this place
DeadButDreaming
Specialist
- Jun 16, 2020
- 362
For me it's the opposite: when I want something the universe finds a way of denying me it.
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 447
Here I am going on about my ex again, sorry. Seriously though the reason I want to go is because I'm not with him.
I will only ever love him, I will wait forever if not then I will ctb, I refuse to love someone else.
Since he walked out every day I say to myself "I just want him, he's all I want, I want him to call me, I want him to want me back, I want to cuddle him, I want to apologise to him properly"
"I want doesnt get" is a saying. well I'm living proof that if you stay positive without any doubt in your mind the universe will give you what you want, ofc you have to work with the universe nothing just appears. I want to believe I'm not being used and the universe wants us together. <3
I will only ever love him, I will wait forever if not then I will ctb, I refuse to love someone else.
Since he walked out every day I say to myself "I just want him, he's all I want, I want him to call me, I want him to want me back, I want to cuddle him, I want to apologise to him properly"
"I want doesnt get" is a saying. well I'm living proof that if you stay positive without any doubt in your mind the universe will give you what you want, ofc you have to work with the universe nothing just appears. I want to believe I'm not being used and the universe wants us together. <3
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Raminiki
Iustitia Mortuus
- Jun 12, 2020
- 269
The universe appears to enjoy making a mockery of my efforts, and sabotaging every dream or hope I dare to have. Empty promises, false hopes, unrealised dreams. I know that's just my perspective on it. In truth the universe is indifferent to my existence.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
The universe is just RNG trash that people with functional emotions feel a sentimental attachment to so I don't take that quote seriously
I love books, but I can't stand Paulo Coelho. The Alchemist is nothing more than feel good drivel.
Green Destiny
Life isn't worth the trouble.
- Nov 16, 2019
- 862
Reminds me of the book "The Secret". How if you think about something and wan't it enough it will come to you. This is just my take but I think that's pure nonsense.
They make loads of money telling people what they want to hear. Sad, really.
Oh God that sounds like me. My soulmate of 22 years just passed away and the pain is unbearable. I can totally empathise with you. That's the reason I'm doing everything in my power to ctb. I'm so sorry for your pain.
raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
- 447
It hurts so much and I couldn't imagine your pain after 22 years I am so sorry, sending you love & hugs. I'm thinking of you, I know how hard it is I spent 11 years with my ex-partner (I hate typing "ex") as I type this he's out with friends right now, I'm worried, I want to be the only girl he wants.
My ex partners mum lost her husband after 25 years and a year later she found someone else, it made me feel sick, it's like she forgot all those years with her husband, she has grandchildren so I don't know why she didn't spend time with her family instead of finding someone and moving on so quickly!
I want to say life gets better but I can't even take my own advice atm
I love books but i never like self-help books like the alchemist(esp veronika decides to die) and every book written by paolo coelho. It gives people a false sense of hope.
My deepest condolences
Im going through the same thing.. My husband, partner of half my life, my soulmate.. only person who cared, just passed away too recently and all ppl tell me is "move on already"..
I just want to go to him, but its so hard to find a working way..
"When you want something the universe conspires in helping you find it" only to take that from you and well....make you scream in agony, i guess. The universe is a sadist it seems
My heart goes out to you, truly.
No one can tell you how you should grieve, you just have to go at your own pace and with what feels right for you. I had a so called friend phone the other day, while I was in the midst of crying. She then asked me " what are you upset about? " SERIOUSLY!! I just put the phone down and haven't been taking her calls since then. I was reading about { can't remember the exact terminology, grief destroys any ability to think or remember} the continuation theory on grief. That even though they are no longer with us physically, they are still present spiritually, in our hearts and in our memories. And we can learn to build a new way of relating to them. This might resonate with you and I respect if it doesn't.
Sending you love and know that you are not alone, no matter how dark that dungeon feels I'm holding a candle light for you !
Thanks, its nice that someone understands. I do believe theyre with us in any way or form spiritually, and hope they dont suffer watching us in pain. Everything you said is very nice, thsnk you.
Just to say, that so called friend is an ass. But others have hard time understanding so i guess its ok.
Best of luck to you, peace
Like you I've spent over half my life with my hubby. It was our wedding anniversary this week, that was so painful, agony. My husband had asked me at Christmas time, if I would like to renew our wedding vows. Now he was not known for his romantic gestures and it destroys me knowing that we'll never get to do that.
Yea universe did that to me, successfully, more then once.
I can confirm agonizing screams. Universe knows how to hurt you real good. Do not underestimate.
Same here friend. But now the "universe" is all too predictable. It gives something only to snatch it away. I am beginning to get used to that.
Sprite_Geist
NULL
- May 27, 2020
- 1,591
The universe is indifferent; a collection of forces, mechanisms and processes that just... Happen. It's all random.
virginiawoolf86
Specialist
- Jul 4, 2020
- 317
It's weird. Anytime something significant happens, my dead ex comes into play. Everything is related to him in some way. I believe he's following me until the end.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,710
I have been waiting for the universe to grant me my dreams and fantasies, but nope, it's not happening and I don't see it likely to happen anytime in the future either. Therefore, rather than living decades and decades more of suffering and torment, especially just for the sake of others' happiness and for them to avoid sadness, I've made up my mind in checking out.
maru.
Experienced
- Apr 6, 2020
- 226
I've always disliked anything with this vibe, that things will work out just because.
I know why people say it, it's to try to comfort others, so i try to stay chill and not get mad, because their hearts are in the right place.
Still, i just don't believe in this stuff, the world feels like we're just thrown here for no reason.
No God protecting us (Don't want to offend anyone religious, this is just my perspective), nothing to guarantee that we won't live and die feeling miserable.
I wish this stuff was real, but when i take a good look around me, i see that the huge majority of humanity is miserable in one way or another.
So yeah, i used to believe this stuff when i was younger, but then after my teenage years ended the "Real World" hit me hard.
I used to think i was special, the protagonist, things will work out, right? I mean, they have to, they always have...
My melancholia evolved to full on depression once i realised that this certainty i used to have was not true, i wasn't ready to learn this.
This reminds me of something i wrote in my diary once, in 2018 when i was in a more angry phase of my depression:
"Life finds a way, they say... Yeah, life finds a way to be fucking shit!"
I admit, this was somewhat AVGN inspired, a laugh a little now when i read it, imagining it in his voice.
I know why people say it, it's to try to comfort others, so i try to stay chill and not get mad, because their hearts are in the right place.
Still, i just don't believe in this stuff, the world feels like we're just thrown here for no reason.
No God protecting us (Don't want to offend anyone religious, this is just my perspective), nothing to guarantee that we won't live and die feeling miserable.
I wish this stuff was real, but when i take a good look around me, i see that the huge majority of humanity is miserable in one way or another.
So yeah, i used to believe this stuff when i was younger, but then after my teenage years ended the "Real World" hit me hard.
I used to think i was special, the protagonist, things will work out, right? I mean, they have to, they always have...
My melancholia evolved to full on depression once i realised that this certainty i used to have was not true, i wasn't ready to learn this.
This reminds me of something i wrote in my diary once, in 2018 when i was in a more angry phase of my depression:
"Life finds a way, they say... Yeah, life finds a way to be fucking shit!"
I admit, this was somewhat AVGN inspired, a laugh a little now when i read it, imagining it in his voice.
Greenberg
nitrogenexit.blogspot.com
- Jun 28, 2020
- 1,063
I am so sorry for your loss. A broken heart is among the most painful things that we experience in life. It is doubly more difficult and painful if it is the result of sudden loss of your soulmate. I hope you will give life a second chance. I can assure you that we all have more than one soulmate in this world. Listen with your ears, and not your eyes; feel the resonance of similitude of the other. Keep well!
Thats true. Broken heart really hurts more then any injury and illness i ever suffered, and still do.
Yes there might be more soulmates. My other ones are god and satan. Wichever takes me first haha
loginboy69
Member
- Mar 25, 2020
- 24
To me, it sure darn feels like the universe has conspired against me. I had a plan to better myself, to pick up and train a new skill to create my own little business, to finally obtain some financial independence and to live my life the way I want it. It all came crashing down now I'm facing prison time for a non-violent offense. An "offense" which was a part of my growth.
It feels like the universe is actually saying to me "You're screwed and you will never have a chance."
It feels like the universe is actually saying to me "You're screwed and you will never have a chance."
Ugh I totally feel this. We had to read it back in high school and everyone was always gassing it up for how deep and powerful it was, but I found the book so stupid and simple. And I wasn't even that depressed back then.
Whitewash11235814
Experienced
- Oct 21, 2019
- 207
Abgrundanziehung
or Abi for short
- Jun 24, 2020
- 216
This is exactly the kind of nonsense I grew up every day hearing. I was taught to dream about what I want and it will come to me, instead of real advice and real help. My life has been a series of absurd dumpster fires, so that worked out well 
